New Year countdown to 2009

New year is drawing near. Within another 4 more hours, 2008 will be over and we will be ushering in 2009. It marks the 10th year of this new millennium.

Right, so what about last year's resolution?

Frankly, i didn't fulfill any of them. This year is really a bad year for me. It's like, nothing really seemed to go my way. The most crucial thing in my mind when I first boarded the plane to return to Malaysia, is to get hired and start working as soon as i can. The last thing that i have never thought it would occurred to me had happened through out the year.

I might regard myself to have gone through the misfortune among all times. The world economy has turned into its negative phase in less than a week. The economic slowdown hits every corner of the world and it fails to make a climb back on track.

How the world would become if this goes on for a long period?

I came across this question when i first graduated from my Masters:
So if one day, my degree doesn't get its recognition anymore from the world's top institutes, what would i do to survive?

Clearly, it is happening to me now. Every developed country and under-developed country are all in consensus to reject excessive trained engineers, as the number of these professionals are increasing exponentially but the demand of engineered products are still in stagnant. No doubt, companies have to call for retrenchment to maintain their financial stability. This cause the recession to reach its new height everyday.

So what do we learn from this incident?

Some people just fade like this. They fell too hard to the ground. Some paralyzed, some died of concussion. And some even wonder where can they find hope again. Is there still hope?

Psalm 39:7-8 reads, "But now, LORD, what do I look for? My hope is in you. Save me from all my transgressions; do not make me the scorn of fools..."

In the midst of crisis, David didn't blame GOD for not making his life the way he (David) had intended to live in. Rather, we can feel his appeal for God's mercy because he could sense that the life is so brief.

Here, i highlighted the importance of living out a life of a Christian by abiding to God's word.

To be able to live in a spiritual realm likewise to what God has called us to is easy to say and difficult to accomplish. We can sense more stability in the spiritual realm than the reality of this world that we are living in. To draw an example: Many working people tend to suffer when financial crisis hits them because they think apart from money, nothing else can they hold onto. As Christians, God called us to cling on to Him regardless of what crisis it might be. For most of us, money doesn't come that easily. But it sneaks away faster than you could realise it. So why not God instead of worshipping money instead?

To survive in this world is not what God wants from us. He crowned us the first day we were born and the crown means to transform us to be like conquerors over His created beings and objects. We are more than money can control but to control money. We serve the one Master, who is the LORD over the Heavens and the Earth and not money which is only a creation from God.

Financial crisis doesn't mean harm to us. It is yet another warning for all mankind from the LORD. The days on the Earth is a preparation for all God's people before we are admitted to the Paradise awaiting us. An analogy of this can be seen when we are in our mothers' worms. God prepared us even before we were born into this world.

So my new year resolution for this coming year, is to walk closer to God's calling.
I might face oppression in my work place or i might have to put up with certain work pressure, but i believe this is what God wants in me, as a preparation for me to excel in my future undertakings, as well as the day after life - the Days of Paradise.

Hallelujah, the old has gone and the new has come. Pray that there will be new converts this year as God has prepared a field for every Christian in every corner of the world. May there be more redemption of souls and loads of happiness.

Wishes you all a Happy New Year. God bless and peace be with you.

Sudha, good to see you!

Met up with one of my close friends, whom i knew from A levels last time.

He is the only Indian in the class. To extract it further, he is also the only vegetarian.

Never in my thoughts that I would see him again after 7 years and I am glad to be able to catch up with him this time before he heads back to London.

I remember every time when we organised party or went out for meal, he would look for the nearest Mc Donald's for his Mc Egg value meal (vegetarian). After he packed his food, then he will follow us to the designated location. I really feel bad for him sometimes as we were happily feasting, he could only chew on Mc Egg.

That's even more challenging when he first started his degree in Surrey. Under a strict and typical Indian upbringing, his parents didn't really allow him to eat out that often when he was young until he left senior high school. To make it worse, Surrey doens't really have much of the Indian vegetarian food for his diet. So i guess he is finding it even more difficult to cope with this eating habit in foreign country like this. Resultantly, he has grown thinner. Actually, it comes with work pressure to be more precise.

I learned that he doesn't like the life in UK as he finds the people there hard to get along with. I bet it is his eating habits that is drawing him from the social groups. Poor thing. He has this plan to return to Malaysia after he finishes his 5 year work there. I am not surprised that he thinks that way. Work is not everything. You still need your family and friends to colour up your life. To not communicate with other people makes us feel dull as if life is just about achieving your goals and not relating yourself to others. Looking at the problem in the Biblical way, if Adam can survive on his own, what did GOD create Eve for?

Changes that i can spot in him that's telling me that behind his silence, it actually comes with a terrible ordeal. He used to be very talkative in class and nobody seemed to have the ability to succumb him in debates. But he talks less after his mother passed away in his midst of pursuing his engineering degree in London. Now he doesn't feel like talking to other people as he sense the hostility of the people around him.

Would really like to take this opportunity to pray for this friend of mine. Hope to see him with a breakthrough in his social circle. I believe if he wants, he can make good friends in the UK. He need to be ready to face challenges even bigger than to repress the feelings of the loss of his love one. He needs to leave the past and move on. May GOD have mercy on him.

It is easy to make friends. Long term problem will be how to cherish the relationship. We should care for those who we seldom see because we might not know when we will be seeing them again.

That wraps up pretty much of what I have been doing today - chilling out with friends and recalling the wonderful moment of our A levels time...

Broken promise and disappointment

Another email that spoilt my mood today.

I received the reply from this company again. And now the company has replaced the previous product engineer position to an internship program. The salary is halved and i might have to work 5-6 days per week.

According to my friend, when the salary is halved, the working day is halved as well because the electronic companies are cutting down the expenditure on the operation.

This company is exploiting me too much and i might have to undergo the interview again, which is sucks. Man...really can not stand the management who fail to keep their promises.

So why at the first place they advertised this position one and a half month ago, if they knew that they weren't able to allocate money to hire more people? And it took 3 interviews to get me to the job but in the end, the President of the company took back his word and left me miserably stunned. Probably the President didn't realise that his decision has caused so much hurt to me and my family. With this incident, it really shows the failure of the management team in handling their own finance when crisis hits. I think there should be more failure of the company to be unraveled if time allows.

Can we have a toast for this team of people? Yam...Seng...

The cut-and-paste email is as below:

Dear Wayne,

The position is hold and will be replace with an attachment program by our goverment. Do let me know if you are interested. One thing to concern is the allowance is only RM1,500.

If you are okay, I can recommend your name for the program.

Regards

A****

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NCITES INTERNSHIP PROGRAM (COLLABORATION WITH NCIA)
(Kedah)

Responsibilities:

• To undergo 12 months On-The-Job training in Silterra Malaysia Sdn Bhd
• Able to commit to undergo this attachment program for 12 months
• Ability to work in a team and as well as individually to carry out projects.
• To liase with other modules to ensure efficient job execution and timely data dissemination.
• Lead/Support cost saving initiation for maximization factory quality output and cost performance
• To participate and contribute constructively to the various meetings/Projects.
• Must be willing to work in shift if requested

Requirements:

• Fresh Degree/Diploma graduates (unemployed) from recognized institution either locally or overseas (recognized by LAN)
• Preferred with CGPA of 3.0 or Second Class Upper
• Candidates with exposures in fab or semiconductors during universities, practical training, final year projects, internship or working experience are strongly encouraged to apply.
• Field of studies:
  • Electrical, Electronics and Engineering (Semiconductor, Microelectronics, etc)
  • Material Science
  • Physics (Solid State, Device Physics, etc)
  • Chemistry (Polymers, Photo Chemistry, etc)
  • Others courses that related to semiconductor, electronics and microelectronics
  • Management Information System

Succesfull candidate will received allowance of RM1500/month (Degree)/ RM1000/month (Diploma) from NCIA

Lexus LF-A Roadster concept car

As a long time supporter of Lexus vehicles, I am once again fascinated by this concept car developed for speed and style.

Let's check out the exterior and interior design of this futuristic transport that one day might be released in the market.

Lexus LF-A Roadster. Courtesy from zcars.com.au

Engine: The V10 engine built in front of the passengers compartment has an approximate 5.0 liters in displacement. It can demonstrate its capability of more than 500 horsepower and test-track speeds greater than 200 mph.

Front view. Courtesy of Lexus.com

Man...this is a manual compressor. You can hide this flap when it is not in use...x10 cool!

Rear View A. Courtesy of zcars.com.au.

Rear view B. Courtesy of Lexus.com.

Heat Venting: Figure above shows a pair of large grilles just below the rear signal lights constructed for venting the heated air from the car's 2 rear-mounted radiators.

Wow...the radiators are at the back of the cockpit! This design aligns with the heat-dissipating system, as the cool air is fed into the radiators from the side intake ducts (Refer to Side view A) just above the rear wheel wells. It's more interesting to learn from the engineers that the radiators' positioning also aides them in search for the car's optimal weight distribution. A brilliant idea indeed.

Side view A. Courtesy of Lexus.com

Side view B. Courtesy of Lexus.com

Side view C. Courtesy of Lexus.com

Of course we are not neglecting the interior design of the car. Two words - Simple and elegant. Taking away the complexity of a central processing system mounted with multiple functional buttons. The car user doesn't want to see himself in the position of the Knight Rider. In reality, we don't need those buttons and additional to that, they make the car look so packed and intricate. No doubt the LF-A Roadster has caught my attention for its innovative idea, laying its finest touch in manufacturing a simple, yet safe and stylish cockpit. Grrr...how long will it take for me to own one?

Interior view A. Courtesy of zcars.com.au

Interior view B. Courtesy of Lexus.com

Lexus LF-A Roadster Concept Preliminary Specifications

Body Type:
Two seat roadster

Powertrain
Type: Front-mid-engine, rear-mid-transaxle
Engine: V10 (under 5.0 liters)
Transmission: SMT (sequential manual transmission)
Horsepower: More than 500
Top Speed: More than 200 MPH

Tire Size
Front: 265/35R20
Rear: 305/30R20

Dimensions (inches)
Overall Length: 175.6
Overall Width: 74.6
Overall Height: 48.0
Wheelbase: 102.6

[Source: Lexus]

Disappointment...speechless!

Two weeks since I was given an oral confirmation from this company for a product engineer position. A long wait has finally come to a conclusion when i decided to email the HR instead of continue to wait for them to get back to me.

The HR sent me a short email which is written like this:

Dear Wayne,

Thank you for your email.

It is still pending our COO approval and I was informed that the position is being hold for some reason. Give me another one week to follow up.

Regards

A****

Another week? This is really pissing me off. So if i didn't remind the HR, i don't think they will ever get back to me about my application status. How irresponsible the HR can be! It might only another piece of work for them to follow up, but to me, the job is what i need for living. They just want to finish up tasks with the highest priority and needless to say, they care about whether i get the job. People are so self-centered when it comes to the point of disaster...Speechless!

I think i mentioned before about me meeting the Senior VP for my job interview. And now i received another nonsense from the HR telling me that my offer letter is currently under pending status with the President a.k.a the Chief Operating Officer of the company.

For crying out loud, why does the application of a junior engineer has to go through the President? I don't see this one necessary as the hiring manager or the senior engineer is already given authority to hire. Again I am not applying for the company's directorship or vice presidency and i hope that they get this right.

Sometimes, I really wonder whether the President has to approve the staffing of a janitor? This is ridiculous + hilarious. In another way of viewing this matter, all the hiring managers, senior managers and senior engineers are only a bunch of useless puppets who only earn their titles without real authority...Speechless!

I take the above email as an indirect rejection for me since the position is being held for some reason. Come on, tell me the reason then. Sigh...these people are not more than a bunch of maggots who are only good at issuing empty promises.

Back to square one again. Hope to see a new beginning in this coming new year.

I am so down. GOD help me!!!

Lost but not Defeated!

As expected, the interview today was really hard.

Especially when i need to face a Senior VP, who interviewed me with a long face and doesn't smile.

He asked me questions that i don't know how to answer. Straight away he condemned me for not be able to tackle such basic questions. According to him, the difficulty of that question is graded an undergraduate level. And i should have what it takes for the job that he is offering.

I can still remember vividly his posture throughout the whole interview - looking at me with his eyes half closed and shaking his head. From the way he reacted to my answer, he must be thinking this fella is hopeless. To further add the heat to the conversation, he turned to me and ask me how many times have i been to the interview. I told him that time was my 3rd time. Without even giving me a chance to explain, he started to raise his tone questioning why i am giving such poor presentation after attending 2 interviews. He furthered his question asking me why i didn't put effort in studying more about the topic that we wanted to discuss. But hey, nobody told me beforehand about what he wanted to ask me.

Before I could defend myself, he interrupted my speech. More and more anger were poured into this conversation which leads us no where. His final question to me was why should he hire me since I couldn't answer his technical questions, which he thought were simple rhyme that most of the engineers will know how to recite. I took courage to ask him to try me because I am a fast learner. But he refuted me by saying that if I am a fast learner, I would have gone to the websites to look for solutions regarding the EASY BASIC technical knowledge.

I didn't even have a chance to finish my talking and he stopped the whole interview. The next thing he did was making a call to the HR officer to escort me out of his office.

Basically, this was my INTERVIEW!!!

Luckily I didn't burst out crying. I have repressed my feeling until the interview was called to stop. Sad ending for the application of this job but I didn't know what's turning up next.

Inside the lift on the way down to the lobby, the HR officer asked me the progress of the interview. So i told her that i did badly and received a lot of scolding and humiliation.
The HR officer smiled a bit and in the next second, she broke a good news to me.

There was this engineer who first thought I wasn't sincere enough for the work, has requested to meet me for the second time. So unexpectedly, another chance is given for me to perform my best. He brought along a Taiwanese engineer and we did the interview in 2 languages.

The interview only lasted 10 minutes as there were only 2 questions being asked. Praise the LORD, these 2 questions fell into the subject that i studied in my masters. I got the question solved so fast that the two interviewers were so impressed with me and they decided to HIRE ME!!!

They even gave me a feedback that out of the 10 candidates that he had interviewed, I am the only person who can answer both of the questions correctly without fault.

I was depressed at the first hour, but GOD came in the RIGHT TIME for me - closing one door and opening another.

That ends the 9 month unemployment. I hope that this will be the greatest testimony ever witnessed by me. Trust in the LORD and work along HIS way and HE will add to you the necessities. Praise GOD that even in this time of economic crisis, HE still shines. And HE has delivered to me the job when i least expect it.

GOD has done it again, way ahead of me, to claim "Jericho". Hallelujah!

Crossing the Jordan - Preparation

Like other mature Christians, I would like to be "cool" over matters which are still in waiting.

Continued from the last entry, mentioning about me waiting for the next arrangement on my interview. I have waited for 2 days and still the HR officers hasn't got back to me.

There is no problem for me to wait, as God taught us to wait upon His instruction for the right time and the right place to strike. I guess I have prayed too much on getting more interviews - there are another two companies which called me yesterday and today respectively for job openings. It should be exciting to receive calls for interview, but somehow my worries doubled.

Speaking of being unfortunate, or rather being too fortunate, I can't exactly plan my time well for all those interviews as they are scattered around Malaysia. Planning my trip and getting bus ticket are the last few things I'd want to do, except for vacation planning.

It doesn't happen to me that the companies are calling from only one state, that is Penang. If so, I could even arrange to have 2 interviews, one after another in a day's time. A tedious journey to look forward to.

So much to think on how to schedule my interviews for this and week after, it is kind of causing me to lose all my focus on my revision in Semiconductor Physics. The actual schedule tells me that I need to finish studying the whole thing by today as I was supposed to have my 3rd interview with the Senior VP tomorrow. But till now, I still haven't received calls from them to arrange the time with me. I wonder whose turn to be unavailable this time. It's always the interviewers' time that I must tolerate. They are busy people who are so engaged with work. And SO AM I!!!

Life is so hectic even before I start working. Can't imagine how it'll be like when I am hired... Well, since there is no point forcing myself to continue my revision due to this insurmountable problem, I instead, put myself into a rather useful and peaceful moment to read God's Word.

Praise the LORD, I am enlightened from that hour of Bible study. Primary reflection gave me the impression that I may be too hurry to achieve my goal. Joshua 3 really helps in calming me in that issue. I may look like I am prepared for the coming challenge but I think God is holding this back because I have not fully comprehended His way of consecration prior to the head-on battle. Sometimes when we are in the rush, God will make us stop and listen. We'll tend to be too focus on our work and forget the divine purposes. The lesson for today: Stay put to God's instruction from time to time and we will be saved from making the wrong move.

It's happening to me in reality reflecting on Joshua's chronicles. I am looking forward to see God's miracle on my job application, like wise to the second greatest miracle He performed before the Israelites on Jordan crossing. It's later learned that the Amorites and Canaanites who were residing along the coast of Jordan river, fled with fear after hearing the mighty power demonstrated by the God of Israelites.

Sometimes, God's strategy of triumphing over a battle can be as simple as drying up the Jordan river for the crossing. The Israelites might had no idea on the tactics used by God in the battle field, but God took that opportunity to teach them that by trusting God only, will the toughests problem be solved.

Holy Spirit will you guide my heart always, so that what I have in my heart will lead to the Heart of the Father. Help me to listen to the instruction properly and follow His plan in the exact pace. My prayer will be that I can make a difference in my community to be, LORD, your witness in my success in life. Amen!

Crossing the Jordan River...NOT!

D-Day is delayed yet another day!!!

I'll add more exclamation mark if I'll be able to shout louder.

Don't know whether i should be happy or sad in this case. Done with the second interview but...but...but... the interviewers still cannot make up their minds whether or not to hire me.

The senior manager, in his indecisive mind, has arranged yet another interview session with me next week! Yes, yet another one! Aren't those people not sick of interview? Or interviewing people just makes their day and makes their happy while seeing people suffered from anxiety, sleeplessness and etc.

And of course, the fun is not theirs solely. I am scheduled to meet up with the Senior Vice President of the Company to decide my fate.

It's not a typo my friend, you are looking at SENIOR VICE PRESIDENT of the company!

Did I apply for the wrong position? or the interviewers are on the wrong track?

Still the same question, why do they need a Senior VP to verify me even after my second stage of interview? Can't they just make up their minds? Or they just lack courage and reluctant to bare responsibility if the people they hired may not turn out helpful in improving the production.

There are 2 issues arise here, which i think it's not reasonable for all these "jokes".

Firstly, it would a big disgrace for them to have to request for the Senior VP to interfere in the round of selection for the right engineer...hey, I mean a JUNIOR ENGINEER in this context!

Secondly, I am not applying to be the DIRECTOR of the company. There is needless for the Senior VP to meet me. Except that Senior VP has a better offer for me. And this offer had better be a good one.

I am just worn off after the interview - having to travel 2 hours and had another 2 hours spent on the interview.

GOD, help me! I wonder why I can only stare at the "promised land" but i can never cross the "Jordan River" to claim it! LORD, reveal yourself to me!

神木與瞳 - 為你而活

Time to relax after hours of revision.

Today's special is the first hit song from 神木與瞳 named 為你而活.

Needless for me to further introduce it. Listen and you'll love it.

Dedicated for those who like slow rock.

The Last and the victorious!

Another D-Day for me tomorrow.

Still, I have loads of notes to go through, but i don't seem to have this feeling of anxiety like i used to had in the past. Perhaps the passage in Matt 6:25-34 really works for me.

34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. - Matt6:34-

Some of my friends think that i should be an expert interviewee by now. But frankly, it is not by how well you perform in the interview, the truth lies on the plan of GOD on whether that's the MARKET PLACE that HE has prepared for you.

Why do I say that? I remember the interview that i had with a hiring manager last week. I got almost all the technical questions right but still he told me that i was too proud and that i haven't shown enough sincerity for the job. How can he judge my "sincerity" from the few hours of interview? Conversely if I failed to answer the questions given, he will tell me that I am not capable for the job. Either way, it doesn't work.

Sincerity often radiates from the boss himself to his subordinates. The boss must show enough sincerity for the workers to work hard for him. If sincerity is what a boss asked from his fellow workers to be shown, before he shows them his sincerity in return, he is not regarded as a good boss. The interviewer may not be a Christian to hear this but I do hope that he will have a chance to encounter GOD's word on ways to be a good master. I might be wrong on this, but this is what i think a boss should possess before he even becomes one.

The LORD said to Moses, "When you return to Egypt, see that you perform before Pharaoh all the wonders I have given you the power to do. But I will harden his heart so that he will not let the people go.22 Then say to Pharaoh, 'This is what the LORD says: Israel is my firstborn son, 23 and I told you, "Let my son go, so he may worship me." But you refused to let him go; so I will kill your firstborn son.' " - Exodus 4:21-23

There are many ways GOD can perform HIS signs and wonders when we least expect it. In Ex 4, GOD hardened the Pharoah's heart so that the Israelites can be freed from salvery in Egypt. GOD's mean to free the Israelites has somehow draw me to believe that HE is doing the same thing to me. GOD could harden the Pharoah's heart, the same HE could do my interviewers. And from all these, HE will perform HIS miracles on me. Praise the LORD for HE had once enlightened me on my previous failure.

Surely, it's GOD's plan to get me out of the situation working for a person like this. HIS ultimate plan is near to the right chronos for revelation. I have a strong feeling that tomorrow will be the day i am waiting for.

Praise the LORD who have authored the chronology of my life. May what that have been prophesied or confessed become the reality. Amen!

神木與瞳-草戒指

A great introduction from my sister.

Got to know 神木與瞳 a few days ago. Kept repeating the songs after it finished playing.

Actually, the members of this band are winners of American Idol and X-Factor liked competition in Taiwan.

This is the second song i learned from Youtube. Love the way the song and lyrics are written.

Well let's hit the song right away.

Back from Asia Conference 2008

Supposed to update my blog 2 days ago after Asia Conference 2008.

But I was so engaged with my work after I reached home. The second interview for another engineering position is scheduled on this coming Friday. And more to that, the interviewers have requested to look at my Master's theses, which is a bad idea because I might have to reread the whole piece work from the beginning. It was a sophisticated piece of work, and if the interviewers wanted to go into details on the research, I would have to spend even more time to comprehend the details myself.

I remember the Fellow for the company asked me a question, which is still fresh to me even now, is "why the mass of of a hole is larger than an electron?"

Flabbergasted I sat there with an empty mind. I don't really know how to answer his question, which for me, is regarded as a basic knowledge that a graduate engineer should know before they are graduated. Ish...so embarassing!!! But in return, he tried to comfort me by telling me not to get offended as he was analyzing my knowledge level and was trying to determine whether i am suitable for the job.

Praise the LORD, after the first round of interview, he seemed to be quite satisfied with my performance and he gave a green light for the second interview as stated above.

I believe that i will perform pretty well this time. In Asia Conference, I have kind of learned from the people from City Harvest Church that as Christians, we should learn how to prophesy, confess and claim victory for the task we are about to work on. Only the belief that we have, the trust we own for GOD, and the faith we discharge, can we be VICTORIOUS!

GOD is always ahead of me, HE will pave the way for me! Just like what HE had done for Joshua the son of Nun in the battle of Jericho to claim the Promised Land which Moses failed to enter.

So have faith, take the cross and go with Christ Jesus. You may not know what you are going to receive after your consistency in prayer.

Note: will update more on Asia Conference 2008 in the next entry.

Week of "The Mass Massacre"

D-Day next week. Loads to be dealt with. Nothing have i started on yet.

The time when i really hope for the interview never came. It always arrives at the wrong time when i have some other things to do. To an extreme state, it comes in "pair" this time.

Doubtfully, the question arises, as for why people would prefer to have job interview next week. Probably it is the "right" day as regarded by Chinese referring to the Chinese Lunar Calender.

Apart from the interview, it's a last minute plan for me to attend the Asia Conference 2008 in Singapore. Always and very often after i have decided on something, other extra events will suddenly land on me, having me to change all my previous schedule. And now i have things filling up to my nostril - experiencing difficulty to even breathe.

The new schedule reads, Monday - Renew Passport, Tuesday - Silterra Interview, Wednesday - Power Electronics Revision, Thursday - Harmer & Simmons Interview. Right after the interview, i will travel down to Singapore.

The new Saga will begin right after i reach Singapore. Asia Conference 2008 will be the next station where my stamina is once again being evaluated. Hopefully, I could REST through the conference in the presence of the LORD.

Pray hard for this to come to past.

San Francisco (Theme of Dying Young)

YEAH...found this song which I love so much when I was still in Primary 4.

One of the Dying Young theme song titled San Francisco from John Newton Howard.

Not many people know about this guy but he is one talented guy in the 90's.

Anyway, enjoy the link!

John Newton Howard - San Francisco (Dying Young)

Revelation - Justice

Revelation. Have this statement ever crossed your mind that the things that you are unable to see or feel in this dimension actually happen in God's Kingdom?

Impossible for us to see justice prevailed in the current society. The evil seems dominating every single aspect in our daily livings. Kind person are most likely going to fall into the hands of the evil doers. Issue about God's existence and His view on the matter of injustice has raised the doubt in my very own belief in Christianity.

What we haven't seen or felt, do not lead us straight to generalization of the non-existence. If you insist that God does not exist because we can not see Him, then you should question yourself, whether you have a brain, since you have not seen your brain with your own very eyes.

Question again, how about Justice? What is Justice?

It happened in a more liberal country like US, demonstrators raising banners, crying out to the government seeking justice. They can tell briefly what Justice is. An abstract noun. The meaning reads "treat us fairly". If they don't get what they have come to ask for, it is not JUST.

Educated people often marginalized the use of Justice to seek the thing they desire. This is viewed as legalized robbery. The constitutional law is practiced to protect its own citizens and not utilized to do evil.

That's why many uneducated citizens often have the mindset that "justice" is for the wealthy and knowledgeable. They claim that they do not see Justice in this world.

Partially true regarding their statement. Justice can only be found in the Kingdom of God. The dimension for Earth is too shallow. Justice does not fit in because the earthlings themselves are shallow-minded.

Earthlings are self-centered by birth. They will only agree with fairness and justice if the cases are sited to them. None of these people will the full comprehension on the word Justice and its origin.

Only those who are God-centered can truly find Justice because it can only be found in other dimension - God's Kingdom.

I almost feel it myself everyday, complaining to God about justice on my job application. How people who are inferior than me could find a job and why can't me? This question still surrounds me because I haven't entered the Heavenly Gate of God's very Kingdom.

I promise myself to be with God, because He is the only key to Justice. And Justice alone resides in the heart of God's Temple. My prayer extends to those who do not believe in justice in the world, trust the One True God, give Him a chance and He, whose name is Justice,will prevail. Amen.

The Cross in exchange for the Scale of Justice.
Courtesy from The Printery House

Books read

Finally finished two books - Jesus Freaks and Discipline of the Godly Man.

Jesus Freaks outlines the martyrdom recorded dating from 33AD until now. The Discipline of the Godly Man asserts on the 17 disciplines of a man in search of godliness.

A strong determination and if possible, the least distraction that you may get, to complete reading these 2 books at the fastest pace.

Take away the laziness, and some time spent on procrastination, I believe I can finish the books even earlier than the expected time drafted in the initial reading plan.

Although it's still far before I could achieve of what I was taught from the book "The Discipline of...", I plan to move to read the book long given by Daniel - The Purpose Driven Life. Despite listening to people in Leeds recommended it for the past 4 years in Leeds, ironically I haven't really read through the book myself.

Since my life is pseudo-purposeless, I guess it's about time for me to search for the real purpose in my life.

Until I finish the book, will update the contents of the book and dissect the value of the Purpose Driven Life from God to us.

Blessings

All praises to the LORD who concerns about my life and everything that lies within it.

Stuck in this dimension of waiting, I have actually experienced quite a number of blessing from God through my friends around me.

There are 3 people who are in full scale, trying to help me to circulate my CV for a suitable job. I am very grateful to them for offering their helping hands even though our relationship have not gone to the closest that we could get to. Their efforts and sincerity has touched me, thinking that still there is HOPE for this world and for the LORD's kingdom.

2 out of the 3 friends of mine are not Christians. Sometimes it makes me wonder how could a non-christian hold on to their very own principle of kindness and unselfishness compared to those church-goers who are self-centered and mean.

I believe GOD has HIS own timing on turning these people to recant their current beliefs. HE will not miss out any person whose Righteousness is found in the LORD.

Hopefully, my upcoming interview this Saturday will be an enjoyable and successful one. Even if it is not, I believe that it is the WILL of GOD for closing one door and opening a better one for me.

Thanks to Cellgroup members who have been praying for me during the times of waiting. May it be a greater testimony to be witnessed and shared among the House when the moment of victory storms.

The LORD is my light and my salvation - whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life - of whom shall i be afraid?
When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh,
when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall.
Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me, even then will I be confident.
- Palsm 27:1-3-

Learn English!

The reason why you should, too, learn English.

Look at those Chinese girls, they learned English because they do not want to just settle down with domestic business (in China). On the other way round, they are moving towards international trade.

But of course, I am not asking you to take prostitution as your part time job...

Anyway, enjoy the video!

方大同 - 愛愛愛

A bit Jazzy about this song.

No doubt, it is well written. I admire artistes who can compose songs different from the Jay's (Jay Chow) style. Many artistes like to imitate the JC's move and it makes us think that the whole chinese music industry is dominated by a sole taiwanese music artiste.

I guess people just like it J. Does anybody do David Foster for a change?

Anyway, this is one of the Wayne's Highly Recommended hits. Enjoy folks!

Sliced Pork with Onion Gravy

Came out with another new idea of cooking pork.

First, the pork must be seasoned with a pinch of salt and black pepper on both sides of the slices.

It is then grill on a flat pan until it is cooked.

Prepare some sliced onions and spring onions and fry them until you can smell the aroma.

Pour in the mixture of ketchup, oyster sauce, honey and salt and stir together with the onions for 2 minutes.

Serve the pork slices together with honey onion gravy and fresh carrots.

Sounds easy? You should try it!


Ingredients


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Trip to Sungai Petani

Back from Sungai Petani (SP).

My first sight gave me an impression of a slow development in this district, which is made up of new residential areas and a slight increase in factory and company establishment. The new local government should work harder to turn SP into a modern hub to attract more people to work to battle recession. If more vacancies are offered, there will be more people reallocating to this place, and this will help to overcome the unevenly distributed population at a few major cities like Penang and KL. I really hope that I could move there if I were offered a place to work. I would definitely do my best to make SP a better place - the paradise second to Heaven.

After so many times of invitation and finally I have made up my mind to pay Daniel a visit in SP over the weekend. Although it wasn't a trip because most of the time were spent in the church, but I would say that I really enjoy accomplishing something meaningful. At least I know that I get to know Daniel better after years of separation. It's all about brotherly sharing again this time. We hit the incredible 5 hour sharing until 5 in the morning.

The next day with barely a 4 hour sleep, we skipped breakfast and went straight to Daniel's church (Grace Methodist) to conduct a physics tuition class for the 4th formers. It didn't take me quite long to comprehend some of the forgotten rules and laws in physical science, before I made my way to the whiteboard to draft my "first lecture". To my surprise, the kids love my teaching. Before going off, they even asked me where I can be reached for problems and when I will be doing my next class. Saddening for them to know that I was only visiting and will be leaving on the next day. But I really hope to go back one day to finish what I have started. It is not only my passion to teach but also my passion to see the kids, who didn't want to study initially, find themselves rooting more into the subject. I guess this is what God wants to see in us, as well, to be excellent in spirit.

I attended 2 services at my first and second day of my stay. The first service was in Mandarin. It's very lively in terms of its praise & worship and the Words. You can actually see how the people in the church responded to the message. I discovered that majority of the Christian dare not express their view of agreement when the Word of Righteousness is proclaimed in the sermon. The adults, inclusive of the senior citizens, were responding so well to the message as they were shouting to the air with agreement. To make the statement more astonishing, half of them are not highly educated. The fact is, they have been relying on the strength of the Lord for His wisdom, so that they may have a joyful and livelier life, even though they don't make much of their earnings with their jobs. They really earn my respect on this.

I blended in quite well with the Youth during the Youth service. Clear observation tells me that the youths in rural area are different from the youths I met in city. The youth in the city churches won't talk to me if they are not familiar with me and more and more of them are having their own clicks. That's why some of the visitors to the city churches might feel unwelcome due to a cold welcome from the authorities. Conversely, it is more welcoming when I was in Daniel's church. The youths were offering to buy me dinner because I had to wait for Daniel to debrief his church leaders after the service. Some of them even took their initiative to arrange transportation for me without knowing that I would be following Daniel home. One thing which surprises me is that they don't really know me not have I met them through introduction, but still they were willing to spend time making their visitor feels like home.

Kudos to Daniel and his church. I think he has sacrificed more than anybody else to build up the church and the youth. I believe the youth will be ready after their secondary school to serve outside their primary church. May God bless them abundantly.

It is really an eye opener over the weekend. I am hoping to see more surprises and witness more transformation on my second trip to GMC.

"Weary never, while serving the Lord. He will restore you when you are at the right track."

God is ahead of us

1 Then Moses went out and spoke these words to all Israel: 2 "I am now a hundred and twenty years old and I am no longer able to lead you. The LORD has said to me, 'You shall not cross the Jordan.' 3 The LORD your God himself will cross over ahead of you. He will destroy these nations before you, and you will take possession of their land. Joshua also will cross over ahead of you, as the LORD said. 4 And the LORD will do to them what he did to Sihon and Og, the kings of the Amorites, whom he destroyed along with their land. 5 The LORD will deliver them to you, and you must do to them all that I have commanded you. 6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."

7 Then Moses summoned Joshua and said to him in the presence of all Israel, "Be strong and courageous, for you must go with this people into the land that the LORD swore to their forefathers to give them, and you must divide it among them as their inheritance. 8 The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."

-Deuteronomy 31:1:8 -

This command was passed down to the Israelites from Moses during the hand over of power to Joshua, the son of Nun.

The Israelistes were preparing themselves to cross the Jordan river to take possession of the land promised by God to their forefathers. Primary intelligence gathered by the spies illustrated that the land was pre-occupied with fierce and vicious aliens, who owned extra advantages in their physical construct when it comes to battle and war.

Moses who was, at that time, old and senile brought forth the message to his people that he might not be able to lead the people anymore into the battle to claim possession of the promised land. But he knew perfectly well that God will prevail and he undoubtedly passed down the message of God that The Lord will cross over ahead of the Israelites and they will take possession of the enemies' land soon after(v.3).

In verse 3 and 7, there is a special anointing from God to Joshua, a man of great Faith, allowing him to join battle with God (great commission) and to be the first to cross the river ahead of the rest of the Israelites. The punchline of this verse remind us to have faith in God. The Lord will be ahead of us in reality and in the present, for the various challenges that might seem insurmountable, or even sometimes, getting out of hand.

God may just want our allegiance and obedience for a return of an abundant blessing. And to have Faith is the only way to live and grow in God's spiritual realm.

5 The LORD will deliver them to you, and you must do to them all that I have commanded you. 6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."

The Lord further reassured the Israelites with with the statement in v.5-6 that He will go to the battle with them and will not forsake them as they charge themselves with the courage God has emboldened them. This statement is also a reassurance for us who are living in the world of suffering and tyranny.

Therefore, be strong and still in God because only the man who has these qualities will be commissioned for God's mighty works. Fear not the obstacles but fear God for He has made way for perfect resolution. HE is always ahead of us, even long before the obstacles strike us as He is the way to all problems.

中秋节

月亮圆，月亮圆，月亮照在我的家...

当我远在英国时，根本感受不到中秋的气氛。

有时还想着，到底英国的月亮有没有我家乡的圆？

已经四年没有庆中秋了，今年的中秋节特别有感触。

记得小时候有着灯笼提，还绕屋旁走，好不快乐。

想不到今年的中秋，又让我回想当年的同乐。

就因为我有一些幼小的表弟妹，嚷着要提灯笼，所以我妈特地的买了很多的纸灯笼，准备今晚来点亮我祖屋。

灯笼在月光下闪耀着

被挂在树苗的灯笼

中华的象征

树枝挂满了灯笼

其中的两个较漂亮的挂饰

中秋节当然少不了月饼。有我爱吃的单黄豆沙！

咦，谁在偷吃月饼？小 G-ROFF 被抓包了。

怎么没有和朋友分享呢？

G-ROFF：因为月饼太好吃了！

好啦，大家一起来分享吧！

除了吃月饼之外，为各位带来一首动感的"跟着月亮慢慢走".



中秋节快乐！

Chicken Curry

Decided to cook again today.

According to my calculation, it's been 8 months since i last cooked my favourite Chicken Curry dish.

There is not a single problem trying to get all the ingredients that i need in Penang if i need to compare the availability of the ingredients and herbs when i was in the UK.

I noticed that British only use limited herbs to cook their meals. Or sometimes, they are just being contented having fast food.

I like all these junk food but i am sure it will burn a big hole in my pocket. That makes me more willing to simply cook and eat at home.

Here you go again, another nice dish to ease my starvation.

I am kind of addicted to eating the violet cabbage. Probably because of its colour which improves my appetite.


Chicken Curry - my style

Chicken Fillet with Cabbage

Suddenly thought of cooking something today.

Nothing special on my menu. The idea just sprouted like that when i was still fetching ideas from my little brain.

The product of this dish may seemed to look a bit like what you can find in the western menu but i assure you that it is of the chinese's.


The ingredients for this dish.


Yum yum...let's dig in.

李圣杰- 擦肩而过

A sentiment.

The MTV tells of a guy who wanted to show this girl his love after a long admiration.

This girl doesn't seem to have given up yet in her current relationship even she was hurt numerous times by her current partner.

And so, this guy is crying out to the girl hoping that she can leave the soberness and turn to him as he offers warmth and care.

Well, if you switch the voice of this guy to the voice of Jesus, what can you find?

Jesus is offering the same thing to us. What we need to do is to leave our past and follow him. He brings joy and happiness that no one can ever offer.

Next time when you listen to this song, remember the sweet voice that's calling you always - the voice of Jesus.

Anwar - Road to Parliament

A great fight took place in Permatang Pauh yesterday as our former DPM took his first steps toward the gate of parliament.

The by-election was announced a roughly a month ago, together with its nomination day before the actual date of the election.

The campaigns rolled off hot for 10 days as both parties sped to the vicinity of their constituency to secure as much votes as they could from the residents.

And eventually, what the people of Malaysia have hoped for, came true last night. Anwar emerged as winner with a majority of 15,000 votes over his challenger Arif Shah. He is likely to be sworn in as the Member of the Parliament in the House of Representative tomorrow.

Things will eventually come to an order in Malaysia. Victory is always with God as He prevails.

It's a definite thought for me to see transformation in Malaysia. As a christian, i believe God has His own timing on the designated person He places in our country.

The condition might not have to be as unendurable as we have to change the leadership of the country. In another context, I believe the triumph claimed by Anwar will serve as a warning to the habitually indolent.

Sadly, the Separation of Powers for the Parliamentary Government doesn't serve much purpose. The establishment of the 3 branches of the government, namely Executive, Legislative and Judicial is meant to ensure no crossing of power among the branches (especially Executive)that will bring about absolute dictation.

For the better and just governance, I hope Anwar will deliver a boost to the parliamentarians to maintain good service to the people of the nation.

劉德華 - 歸宿

我承认我自己不是个感性的人。

这一首歌却带给了我一丝丝悲伤， 让我流露出感性的一面。

女人本该找个好归宿，可是要找对的，有如海底寻针。

[归宿]这首歌写下了爱的执著。

爱是无条件，无界限的为所爱付出。
恋爱时掉以轻心，将会伤致他人的心。
往往等到爱恋已成过去， 人才会懂得珍惜，领悟。
种种错误的表现，将为爱情添上等号。

由刘德华亲自挥手制作，[归宿]献给各位女性朋友。

詞：劉德華　
曲：吳建億

不想看到你哭　找個人傾訴　毋用隱藏無助
愛傷人的欄目　淚水的溫度刺骨　已無法復甦

是故意　是疏忽　也是對愛的一種汙辱　
真心有苦　癡心有毒 該不該早一點結束

是墳墓　是歸宿　不要走到最後才清楚　
為愛而哭　不是錯誤 痛的領悟　總有人不會在乎

受傷的人別哭　就聽我傾訴　你我逆地相處
太一樣的感觸　輸了就心服口服　從不會忌妒

是故意　是疏忽　也是對愛的一種汙辱　
真心有苦　癡心有毒 該不該早一點結束

是墳墓　是歸宿　不要走到最後才清楚　
為愛而哭　不是錯誤 痛的領悟　總有人不會在乎

是故意　是疏忽　也是對愛的一種汙辱　
真心有苦　癡心有毒 該不該早一點結束

是墳墓　是歸宿　不要走到最後才清楚　
為愛而哭　不是錯誤 痛的領悟　總有人不會在乎

The Begin of the Devastating Day

Yesterday was the first day of the 7th Month of the Lunar calendar.

Chinese people believe that the 7th month is an eerie month especially the 15h day of the month. It is said that the Taoism form of Hell will allow hungry ghosts to enter our world for their annual feast. In order to prevent from encountering the ghosts, Chinese Taoist will try not to go out late at night. For the next 15 days until 8th month, fellow Taoist will be praying for their ancestors and family members who have deceased, hoping to beg for forgiveness and to avoid paranormal disturbance.

26 years ago on the first day of the 7th month in the Lunar calendar, a boy was born to this world.

He used to be a small bully because most of the family members were intimidated by his brutal act. This boy seemed to get a lot of attention from his family and they will try their best to fulfill his needs or he will cry his way to a threatening pitch.

Now the scary part of this boy is, he is sitting in front of his laptop writing his blog entry now. Wooo....*cold wind*

Alright everybody can stop screaming now. It is the big bully's birthday yesterday. Cannot believe that he is 28 according to a calculation in a chinese way. I feel weird waiting for my 26th birthday and i have just celebrated my 28 chinese birthday. Oppss...did i just say my birthday? That's past tense for the big bully description. Believe it or not, i am a lovely young man now. Yes you may go ahead vomit...Lol...

Didn't hold a huge celebration but my cousins came over to my house for a small party. We talked until 4.00 in the morning until our tiredness shut us down. I really enjoy sharing with my cousins and friends. Really miss the moment in Leeds and the sharing from friends. I had a phone conversation with Yv today and she makes me miss Leeds even more. I couldn't make it for her gathering this time in KL and I will definitely miss the companionship of her, Will and Chrissie as cell group members.

When will i be back in Leeds again? May my birthday wish come true.

五月天 - 小太陽

Finally, managed to get this song from Youtube. A nice song from a brilliant band.


詞曲﹕阿信
編曲﹕五月天

多麼難忘 是你純真的模樣
突然的吻 瀰漫著茶香

多麼嚮往 夢想總是在他方
你說等我 不管多漫長

你就是太陽 蒸發了彷徨
所以挖開土壤 種下希望 離開了故鄉

看著你的眼眶 忍著淚 閃著光
我會很快回來 繼續我們 未完的天堂

看著你的臉龐 微笑著 要我去闖
你的盼望 是我握在手中 小小的太陽

念念不忘 此刻應該是農忙
如畫風光 有你在歌唱

你就是太陽 照亮了方向
你讓地球旋轉 月亮發光 讓我有翅膀

梁靜茹-會呼吸的痛

Another lovely song from Jasmine Leong.



梁靜茹-會呼吸的痛

作詞：姚若龍 作曲：宇恆


在東京鐵塔 第一次眺望
看燈火模仿 墜落的星光
我終於到達 但卻更悲傷
一個人完成 我們的夢想

你總說時間還很多 你可以等我
以前我不懂得 未必明天就有以後

想念是會呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你愛的歌會痛 看你的信會痛
連沈默也痛

遺憾是會呼吸的痛 它流在血液中來回滾動
後悔不貼心會痛 恨不懂你會痛
想見不能見最痛

沒看你臉上 張揚過哀傷
那是種多麼 寂寞的倔強
你拆了城牆 讓我去流浪
在原地等我 把自己捆綁

你沒說你也會軟弱 需要倚賴我
我就裝不曉得 自由移動 自我地過

想念是會呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你愛的歌會痛 看你的信會痛
連沈默也痛

遺憾是會呼吸的痛 它流在血液中來回滾動
後悔不貼心會痛 恨不懂你會痛
想見不能見最痛

我發誓不再說謊了 多愛你就會抱你多緊的
我的微笑都假了 靈魂像飄浮著
你在就好了

我發誓不讓你等候 陪你做想做的 無論什麼
我越來越像貝殼 怕心被人觸碰　
你回來那就好了

能重來那就好了

Saved by the call

Saved by a call today when I was on the edge of boredom.

A call not from God but from two long lost friends. They used to be close friends of mine when I was studying in INTI College. Ah Bao went to Leeds with me and Bryan left to Canada. Both of them have been working for some time before they came back to Penang for holiday. Less than a month and they will be leaving back to the place where they had their first degree to pursue a Master degree in their respective fields.

Right, back to main topic. They invited me to join them for dinner in Gurney Plaza. Had this super expensive Kim Gary (don’t know how to spell it). After dinner, Ah Bao suggested a movie to fill the time for the rest of the evening. So we went for Batman – The Dark Knight.

The movie is not brilliant. It is lengthy and horrifying. Overall review of the movie, I rate it as one of the frightening ones. The threats came like tides. As if it is never ending. Normal people with bad heart condition will easily get heart attack. With the magnifying effect of the surround sound in the cinema, it surely can trigger a shock. I guess I will just treat this as an exercise to my cardiac muscles. Although the movie does not give me much satisfaction, watching it with friends is worthwhile.

Soon after I reached home after the movie, I received an offline message from another long lost friend – C Keat. No wonder I had six sense of him coming back to Penang this morning. Anyway, he is inviting me for breakfast tomorrow morning. That means my free time is occupied tomorrow…yahoo…!!! We seldom meet up after I settled down in England. This will be our first encounter after 4 years since the last gathering. He is back now for his houseman ship. There will be so much to share between us over the breakfast tomorrow. I am looking forward to that and well, at least tomorrow, my time is occupied.

Alright, need to retrieve and make time for tomorrow. Signing off…

Pancake served

I am dead broke now. Look at what I had for lunch today?

Searching for healthy source of protein and carbohydrate, suddenly it just made me hanker after pancake with muesli and fruits. Actually I didn’t crave for that but my mind was telling me that this will offer me the cheapest nutrients for the day.

Well, here you go – Pancake. I personally like to shape the pancake to the form similar to the Japanese Dorayaki(銅鑼焼き). It helps to improve my appetite…wink…


Dorayaki liked Pancake...slurp...

Not bad of a taste for these lovely pancakes and it somehow remains me about Steph’s cooking in Leeds. Will give you a glimpse of what she usually cooked for me.


Roasted Chicken with whipped potato and salad


Guess what? Mee Goreng Steph style


Inspired by Gourmet Burger Kitchen, I present you Steph styled set dinner. Good for couple who don't want to spend too much in GBK. A glass of red wine will be a perfect combination.

I wonder when can I enjoy myself like that again...

Everything is breaking down

An unlucky week for me and my family. Electrical appliances keep braking down one after another.

First, it was the refrigerator. After careful analysis, the service engineer told us that the motor overstressed. And so he replaced the old motor, which has been working for the past 10 years , to a new one.

Two days later, my dad found out that the washing machine broke down. Further scrutiny, the timer device and some other electrical control peripheral all malfunction at the same time. Needless to say, all the parts need replacement. This brings up the total service and replacement parts cost to a frightening RM400! And so again, my parents decide to purchase a new washing machine since the current one has been serving us for the past 14 years. Time to change for a better one.

The following is a funny one. How many people have encountered a spoilt electric meter? Well, I have just seen one in my house. A service man from TNB came to read my house’s electric meter today and to his amazement, the meter reading that he has just taken is the same as that of the reading he took last month. I don’t want to comment on this happy thought of mine too early because I don’t know whether they will waive last month usage from our bill. Anyway, he has called to his headquarter requesting for the meter to be repaired.

The story doesn’t end here. My mom just discovered that our electric gate failed to work after punching several times on the remote control button. I tell you, this week is very 衰 for us. Well I guess we should look at the bright side for getting new stuffs for our house. But not so bright when it comes to spending money. What to do? Sigh…

New MoDem up for network

It was just two days when i discovered that my Modem suddenly failed to detect ADSL signal from my land line. I suspected lightning during the heavy storm which damaged part of the modem circuitry.

Luckily, there is a spare USB modem which I found sitting on top of my luggage (the one that i took to Leeds). The initial plan was to throw this "trash" away as serial of trials conducted to establish the connection to the broadband failed.

But this time, the laziness to get rid of the "trash", somehow, saved me from the hassle of my time and money to get a new modem as a replacement.

The trash has surprisingly turned into what i regarded as treasure at this moment when i needed it most. It started to work after my uncle landed his Midas Touch to bridge the local area network to the broadband service.

Thank goodness my home broadband is operational. I was still wondering yesterday on how long it may take, for me to get my some other job application done with my pitiful Dial-up connection. Praise the Lord that He is always on time for rescue. Amen.

不公平

突然间发现了这一首歌。不知为什么，这一首歌就这样在我的脑海里徘徊着。

我相信爱情是公平的，尤其是上帝赐各我们的爱与情。

爱是来自于上帝，而上帝就是爱。情是上帝的邀约，而上帝就是要我们回到祂的身边。

作词者可能在她的爱情里受到了挫折，经历了孤单才形成了对情爱上的犹豫，而感不公平。

听了这一首歌之后，我们才了解，只有上帝的情与爱，才值得我们去追求。

开拓您的心，让主耶稣的爱围绕您。



不公平

走了那麼遠　發現你不在身邊
獨自走過了什麼　自己都不了解
未來的藍圖應該有你　不該只剩嘆息
只是偶爾　淚流不停

堅強的理由　只是自己騙自己
你眼中的恐懼　說什麼都多餘
付出的一切值不值得　永遠不會有答案
只有天知道我有多麼愛你

一顆心屬於一個人　在愛情裡什麼算公平
愛的深也傷的深　是不是催眠了自己
一顆心屬於我自己　愛情裡找不到公平
而當你最後選擇了逃避　我學會不公平


堅強的理由　只是自己騙自己
你眼中的恐懼　說什麼都多餘
付出的一切值不值得　永遠不會有答案
只有天知道我有多麼愛你

一顆心屬於一個人　在愛情裡什麼算公平
愛的深也傷的深　是不是催眠了自己
一顆心屬於我自己　愛情裡找不到公平
而當你最後選擇了逃避　我學會不公平

本來就不公平

Friday's

Thank goodness, it's Friday! But hey, it's not Friday yet. One more day to go and a few hours to be precise to reach the final working day of the week. Want to know why? Because I had dinner there just now.

What a minute? Dinner at Friday's? Yes, it's TGI Friday!

Thank goodness, even if it is not Friday, I get to enjoy my time with my family over there.

I didn't know it beforehand that my dad was going for grocery shopping. And the nearest shopping complex is Queen's Bay, which is only 5 minutes drive away from my house. When we were figuring out where to have dinner, TGI Friday was just along the way, so my dad requested to dine in there since both my parents haven't tried this high class "junk food" before.

The settings of the restaurant is just the same as the one back in Leeds. Since it is an American restaurant, I guess they are trying to make their customers feel like America. If not we wouldn't be having the same settings and interior design identical in both countries.

Three of us, we ordered 2 set dinner and a large mushroom soup as whole. These 2 set dinner came with two sets of appetizers: Fried Breadcrumb Macaroni Cheese Bites and Fried Squid Rings and both came with Salsa Sauce! Quite a good combination of taste. It's hard to believe that Macaroni Cheese can be fried in cubes and can be eaten with Salsa Sauce. I was so hungry that I have forgotten to take some pictures of the food. But with a good imagination, I am sure you know how good the food are.

Main course White Fish is served with lemon sauce and long beans, while the other one is Chicken Fillet served with Mozzarella Cheese and special sauce (don't know what sauce that is). How do I find the main courses? I was too busy cutting and munching that time, so forgot to slow down my pace and enjoy the food longer. But of course, with that kind of price I pay, you'll know the standard of the food and the service there.

To complete the course, we had Chocolate Malt Cake and Caramel Ice-Cream. A while since I had my last dessert before returning to Malaysia. It's never a habit of me having dessert after my meal. But after I reached the UK, the ladies started to request for desserts after every meal, which made me want to follow the culture there. You know, there is a saying: "when you are in Rome, do as the Romans do." And that was what I did, indulged myself so much on dessert and sometimes I could be craving for dessert so much, that I finished a whole 750g of ice-cream on my own within 2 days! People will be curious to find my body size unchanged. Thanks to my body for having high metabolic rate.

That's right, TGI Friday is a place to be. I wish that I could turn back the clock because the enjoyable moments are just too short and very often the moment stays. This makes me think of my next visit to TGI Friday.

Friends! Mind having dinner with me at...

Lauren Wood - Fallen

Another song intro. Suddenly thought of this song and I have decided to blog about it.

This is the soundtrack from Pretty Woman. I can remember how the story goes but it really is the song to be played when you are driving back home from work. The reason I like this song, none other but its relaxing tone. A pretty song for a pretty woman and yes it is also recommended for the lover birds. Guys you can't court without this song, you know! Haha...anyway enjoy the song.


Lauren Wood - Fallen

An email from uncle

An email was written to my uncle from Singapore 2 days ago to update him about my interview which was held the day before.

It's the most fabulous email I have ever received from him. As he went telling me to think about what I am to God and how God can offer help to me in my life, I suddenly felt the joy from God.

I am not delighted because the email replied is encouraging to me. But the content of the email has completely changed my view of my great uncle. I wonder when did he start entrusting his life to Christ.

The word SURRENDER, would be seen as TOTAL FAILURE or SHAMEFULNESS, in this modern world. A Total Surrenderedness requires more than boldness and courage. It is self-denial. It tells of the act of a man who gives up his possessions (eg. treasure, dignity, power etc.)and takes up the Cross to follow Christ.

This form of discipline is now protrayed on my uncle and I am grateful that after so many problems have hit him, he chooses to stand by the side of God. There is no shamefulness but pleasent in God's eyes to have us home with Him.

I think I should share this email out and I hope it will help to bring the joy from God in you.

" Hi Way:

Thank you for updating me, and being so opened with me.

From your description, I would rate that as a very 'fruitful' and 'God-sent' interview. God never promised us sunny day everyday. There will always be sunny days, rainy days, or even stormy days. There would also be earthquakes, and typhoons as well. God has a plan for all of us. In His Grand Master Plan, He has left distinctions for us to acquire along the journey. The distinctions from the journey are the gifts from God, not a job offer. I would not have wanted God to help secure me a job, considering His Greatness. Instead, I would pray for God to open my eyes in acquiring distinctions in life in every step I take, when I live everyday. For example, Distinction in being peaceful and faithful in facing all kinds of circumstances, be they good or bad, happy or sad, success or failure.

God has shown you in your interview, areas that are missing in your education, and your life. Though that has been an uncomfortable (as you have made it to be, not God) session, ask ourselves, are there any great things in life or in this world that was built on no hard work, and on comfort alone? You have discover some missing elements in your training, and experience, continue to pursue knowledge and or put in effort to cover areas that you do not know and need to know, and in the mean time, never stop to ask yourself, who you are being? Are you game in putting attention away from yourself, your wants and needs, and start thinking about what others need?

Start from these:

Being a son - how have you been being a son to your parents?
Being a brother - how have you been being a brother to your sister?
Being a peer - how have you been being a friend to your classmates, your fellow Church friends?
Being a member of a community - .......
Being a citizen - .................
Being a man in humanity - ......................
Go on and on

I acknowledge you for being generous in sharing with me the most intimate part of yourself, your life and your career, and your openness. Do not be too taken or shaken by that interview.

Try on this in your next interview. Be authentic. How?
When we are truthful to ourselves, and be 'authentic' (this has no grey areas, only black and white, either yes or no) with what we are, what we know, we can be totally comfortable with what we are not, and what we do not know. You can be totally comfortable (with no loss of confident or composure) in acknowledging what you do not know to your interviewers. You can state that as a fact, with no attachment of guilt, shame or apology. We are made in God's image, what is there to be ashamed of?

Find every opportunity, you can see the windows opened in the conversation if you are attentive and listen with no preconceived ideas, and speak about what you know, what you can contribute. Again, state that as a fact, and with no attachment.

I have interviewed countless numbers of architects in my whole career, and I do not look for a person who knows everything, I can find more reliable answers from encyclopedia, or Wikepedia. I look for persons with honesty, integrity and confidence. A person who is confident is at ease and has no conflict with himself/herself. He is one who does not look down on himself, nor is he apologetic about not knowing anything. A person with integrity has no qualms about who he is and who he is not.

All the best to your next interview.

Cheer up,

Tuaku "