Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Break me and reassemble me

Valentine's day, an extraordinary day for God to speak through me about His teaching. Many people might think that i am fine in my life. But that's not the truth. I feel weak as i can't focus on what God has to say to me. My body and soul started to take over me. I was moving in despair and truly heart-broken.

God is faithful to me. I know it to myself that i am living in a life of arrogance. And this is the first time God has ever worked so deep in my heart that i nearly burst into tears. Arrogance has led me to disobey God's command. It was my body and soul which were leading me. But the stage of life i was going through was just broken by God. The pain comes in and finally i just discovered that i haven't really loved God much of this time eventhrough i have been showing to Him through my prayers. That might be the stage that most of the successful christians must go through.

So i really pray to God that He will teach me more on my daily prayer life. Give me something to pray of as the day goes by. And may the prayer be what the Lord has commanded.
Thank you Lord for breaking me and have me tasted this bitterness so that i can continue to be the man of integrity. Lord, i just want to give my life to you and surrender fully into your ministry. May the power of the Holy Spirit lead me through the darkest time i am facing now. And God, i pray that you will reassemble me once again and have my spirit renewed. Give me a new hope O Lord and help me to listen to and believe on what you want to say with me, so that i can march boldly like once the Israelites did in Egypt.

My prayer to God for His constant blessing, so that the hunger of the word of God in me continues to flow. There will be none like Valentine's day, where the presence of God has touched me so deep. And may Lord God help me to love Him more and may the reconciliation of the fellowship with God be eternal. Amen.

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