Out of 10 career counsellors, 9 would tell you that you should have some expectation on your upcoming interview. One key point for this suggestion is that, they want you to be fully prepared for the questions the interviewers are about to ask. To a certain extent, this can be accomplished but more often the topic of discussion could be unpredictable.
Just like yesterday, I thought it will be an easy one for me but I never thought I would end up like a mouse being scared by a ferocious cat. I was totally stunned when the technical questions bombarded at me. Hardly, I could explain to the interviewers properly about the problems that were given to me to solve on spot.
Although in the stage of uncertainty during my presentation, I received a few nods along the way. But still I doubt I have answered the problems correctly, noticing that the interviewers were only nodding for consolation, just to bring down my tense for the wrong answer presented to them. I feel thankful to the interviewers for keeping whole the dignity and the self-esteem of an interviewee.
Despite the failure and brokenness, I can feel that God is upholding me, yet once again. The scenario today has taught me a great lesson. It is unpredicatable for an event to just sweep you like a water current without early warnings or acknowledgement. But I am very sure that God has His best prepared for me in the coming days. Not that God is predictable but He is approachable because He loves you. You can be sure of Him and His promises for the salvation of mankind. I always think this way to fight myself off the heartache of losing something valuable in this world, a promising job for example. After all, the love from God can far beat any possession in this world.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Revising...
Today seems to be an easy day for me. Apart from waking up late and having the best meal of the day, the day is spent on preparing my upcoming interviews for this coming Monday.
Frankly speaking, I can't study when I am forced to. But treating the revision like leisure reading is just the opposite. It's a pure satisfaction as I have acquired knowledge related to motherboard architecture.
Remember the first time when I was asked to map up a normal PC motherboard, the only action I could do was staring at the blank paper that was provided to me. A sense of regret filled me and I never stopped blaming myself for not taking this subject seriously. My ignorance towards this subject is because of the intricacy for the entire cumulative design and architecture in the past 40 years. Further to this, it made me gain even deeper respect to those who have such great insight to devise and to pioneer the novel invention.
Often I question myself whether to move on to be an engineer. The superficial knowledge that I had on the subject put me in low self-esteem. It could only be a figment of imagination that with the academic qualification that I have, I will definitely secure a promising job.
Knowledge that is not constantly used or practiced in mind will soon fade away. The result, another failed interview. Paper qualification no longer gives its holder an unconditional pass for a promising job. The interviewee will, instead, be verified by his interviewer of his qualification. Here comes the nightmare of facing some "inhumane" treatment and plenty of bombardment of extremely difficult technical questions. Experiencing this as a "victim" myself, I regarded it as unlucky for not studying the right topic for the interview.
Later have I discovered that my attitude towards studying is just merely to pass exam/job interview. And if no further effort to fully comprehend the concept of how the science works and apply the knowledge in daily usage, the knowledge will soon fade. It requires Wisdom to acquire Knowledge. Now that I have seen things differently, it's easier for me to study. At least now, I find that I enjoy reading and studying like never before.
Remember, Knowledge is priceless! You can have as much as you want and nobody can "steal" them from you. Whereas, being the richest person in the world can never secure one's possession and for once, he can be an easy victim of robbery, theft or other crimes.
Frankly speaking, I can't study when I am forced to. But treating the revision like leisure reading is just the opposite. It's a pure satisfaction as I have acquired knowledge related to motherboard architecture.
Remember the first time when I was asked to map up a normal PC motherboard, the only action I could do was staring at the blank paper that was provided to me. A sense of regret filled me and I never stopped blaming myself for not taking this subject seriously. My ignorance towards this subject is because of the intricacy for the entire cumulative design and architecture in the past 40 years. Further to this, it made me gain even deeper respect to those who have such great insight to devise and to pioneer the novel invention.
Often I question myself whether to move on to be an engineer. The superficial knowledge that I had on the subject put me in low self-esteem. It could only be a figment of imagination that with the academic qualification that I have, I will definitely secure a promising job.
Knowledge that is not constantly used or practiced in mind will soon fade away. The result, another failed interview. Paper qualification no longer gives its holder an unconditional pass for a promising job. The interviewee will, instead, be verified by his interviewer of his qualification. Here comes the nightmare of facing some "inhumane" treatment and plenty of bombardment of extremely difficult technical questions. Experiencing this as a "victim" myself, I regarded it as unlucky for not studying the right topic for the interview.
Later have I discovered that my attitude towards studying is just merely to pass exam/job interview. And if no further effort to fully comprehend the concept of how the science works and apply the knowledge in daily usage, the knowledge will soon fade. It requires Wisdom to acquire Knowledge. Now that I have seen things differently, it's easier for me to study. At least now, I find that I enjoy reading and studying like never before.
Remember, Knowledge is priceless! You can have as much as you want and nobody can "steal" them from you. Whereas, being the richest person in the world can never secure one's possession and for once, he can be an easy victim of robbery, theft or other crimes.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Crisis
Press reported a statement from the Russian President accusing US for the world economic woes.
What has been called the Aggressive Financial Policies drawn by the Bush Administration has caused quakes to the world economic stabilisation. Following the issues of the economists failing to bring the balance to the country’s major impediment toward gradual economic growth, more problems occurred leading to repercussion of other continents.
When a country encounters problems, more often the people will suffer along. I don’t want to put all the blames onto the crisis we are facing now because of my failure in securing a job in Malaysia.
Returning from the UK gives me a brand new hope in my career path. On the contrary, the reality is not like this. Things seem to be far-fetched and I am not even a step closer to it.
Half way through my distressing thoughts, a flash of incidents suddenly took over. There are enough calamities happened around the world, and how come people often think about themselves first before offering their help to those who are desperately struggle to stay alive.
For once I thought it might be the end of the world since there were so many disasters happened in less than 2 weeks. It might be the sign of warning from God. Hopefully, God will continue to show his mercy to the living.
I am really hoping to see love after these incidents. Let the human race come to realise God’s love as the primary love he had for human when the ancestors of human race were created.
What has been called the Aggressive Financial Policies drawn by the Bush Administration has caused quakes to the world economic stabilisation. Following the issues of the economists failing to bring the balance to the country’s major impediment toward gradual economic growth, more problems occurred leading to repercussion of other continents.
When a country encounters problems, more often the people will suffer along. I don’t want to put all the blames onto the crisis we are facing now because of my failure in securing a job in Malaysia.
Returning from the UK gives me a brand new hope in my career path. On the contrary, the reality is not like this. Things seem to be far-fetched and I am not even a step closer to it.
Half way through my distressing thoughts, a flash of incidents suddenly took over. There are enough calamities happened around the world, and how come people often think about themselves first before offering their help to those who are desperately struggle to stay alive.
For once I thought it might be the end of the world since there were so many disasters happened in less than 2 weeks. It might be the sign of warning from God. Hopefully, God will continue to show his mercy to the living.
I am really hoping to see love after these incidents. Let the human race come to realise God’s love as the primary love he had for human when the ancestors of human race were created.
Monday, June 02, 2008
Testimony
How can I stop praising God for His Faithfulness?
It's 3 days ago when the hospital authority sent my grandfather into ICU for closer medical observation. The mistake made by the medical personnel caused the air to enter my grandfather body leading to his swollen face.
I am grateful to have a group of people who have been praying constantly for my grandfather. Most importantly, God's healing hands upon my grandfahter. And today, he is once again moved back to a normal ward after the doctor claimed that his condition is improving.
From the day my grandfather was admitted, there is a strong conviction in my telling me to pray and ask for God's help. I was sceptical about God to heal my grandfather because
1) he is not Christian
2) the doctor told us that he was in critical condition and might lose his life anytime.
But something deep down inside me has told me to believe that God will heal once we ask Him to.
On my first visit, he couldn't even speak and he found difficulty breathing as his ribs have made damages to his lungs during the collision. I prayed by his side without letting him know. After I am sure that he was asleep then only I headed home with my dad.
Upon reaching home, I started to send emails to people who i find accountable to share this problem with and ask them for prayer. Many people in Leeds responded and so do the people in Singapore (who were informed by Andrew). We started this prayer until today when I finally received good news from the doctor to move my grandfather to a normal ward.
Christians may have come across testimonies about Miracles performed in the churches or even those mentioned in the Bible. Never have I really believed until I personally encounter this Grace myself.
It's truly remarkable for God to save a non-believer, because He first love him. What's in God mind is our salvation. It doesn't matter how we look like, how intelligent we are, or how wealthy we may be. God is please with only a type of people, that's the man of integrity, who obeys not the rule of this world, but God the Father.
Heavenly Father, thank you for breaking my disbelief on the issue of Miracle. I pray that you will help the rest who have witnessed your Grace to abide to you more. May the confidence given to them be used for a greater task of yours. Amen.
It's 3 days ago when the hospital authority sent my grandfather into ICU for closer medical observation. The mistake made by the medical personnel caused the air to enter my grandfather body leading to his swollen face.
I am grateful to have a group of people who have been praying constantly for my grandfather. Most importantly, God's healing hands upon my grandfahter. And today, he is once again moved back to a normal ward after the doctor claimed that his condition is improving.
From the day my grandfather was admitted, there is a strong conviction in my telling me to pray and ask for God's help. I was sceptical about God to heal my grandfather because
1) he is not Christian
2) the doctor told us that he was in critical condition and might lose his life anytime.
But something deep down inside me has told me to believe that God will heal once we ask Him to.
On my first visit, he couldn't even speak and he found difficulty breathing as his ribs have made damages to his lungs during the collision. I prayed by his side without letting him know. After I am sure that he was asleep then only I headed home with my dad.
Upon reaching home, I started to send emails to people who i find accountable to share this problem with and ask them for prayer. Many people in Leeds responded and so do the people in Singapore (who were informed by Andrew). We started this prayer until today when I finally received good news from the doctor to move my grandfather to a normal ward.
Christians may have come across testimonies about Miracles performed in the churches or even those mentioned in the Bible. Never have I really believed until I personally encounter this Grace myself.
It's truly remarkable for God to save a non-believer, because He first love him. What's in God mind is our salvation. It doesn't matter how we look like, how intelligent we are, or how wealthy we may be. God is please with only a type of people, that's the man of integrity, who obeys not the rule of this world, but God the Father.
Heavenly Father, thank you for breaking my disbelief on the issue of Miracle. I pray that you will help the rest who have witnessed your Grace to abide to you more. May the confidence given to them be used for a greater task of yours. Amen.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Recuperation
Praise God for the rapid recuperation on my grandfather after the operation was carried out successfully last night at about 10pm to 12am.
Praise God that i can really share His godness and Miracle once again.
God reminds us never cease to pray when trouble comes. Keep working on our faith, and God will take care of the rest.
I will continue to pray for my grandfather, although he still needs to stay back for the next 48 hours for medical observation.
At least now i have something to thank God when i wake up from sleep. Will be prasing Him from now onwards for His Faithfulness and His consistent Healing Hands. I guess without these, I would not be living in a joyful life today. Although, there might be things which will discourage us during the day, but with a healthy body and a joyful heart is the best we can look forward to.
Blessed be the Name of Jesus!
Praise God that i can really share His godness and Miracle once again.
God reminds us never cease to pray when trouble comes. Keep working on our faith, and God will take care of the rest.
I will continue to pray for my grandfather, although he still needs to stay back for the next 48 hours for medical observation.
At least now i have something to thank God when i wake up from sleep. Will be prasing Him from now onwards for His Faithfulness and His consistent Healing Hands. I guess without these, I would not be living in a joyful life today. Although, there might be things which will discourage us during the day, but with a healthy body and a joyful heart is the best we can look forward to.
Blessed be the Name of Jesus!
A Bigger Challenge Ahead
A familiar ring tone hit me. Nobody would call me in Penang, not as frequent as when I was in Leeds. This time, it doesn't carry a good news but a bad one.
My mom, in her trembling voice, called to tell me that my grandfather has been admitted to hospital due to a road accident.
The first response that comes into my mind is "Lord, why the challenges have to be double the rate of what i can bare?"
If you notice the last entry of mine, you will know that i wanted to start a journal for my prayer. I would like to jot down my experience that i am about to have with God in this new phase of life.
The first prayer is to ask God to place me at the right Church/place for me to continue serving the Lord. The second will be to ask God to lead me the way to my future career. The third one for the Salvation of my family members and relatives. Never have I thought that another big challenge that outrank even the second priority of my prayer list - that is my grandfather's admission to the ICU.
Now i am facing greater challenges which requires me to double or triple my effort in my prayer exercise. Knowing that he suffers from minor fracture on his scalp, his collar bones and a few dislocated and fractured ribs. Doctor added that he suffers from concussion as well. Hearing that really makes my heart broken.
My grandfather has suffered enough in his life to bring up my mom, uncles and aunt. When he is senile and just about to live a relaxing life after retirement, this tragedy happened on him. I really pray that God will take this time to reveal Himself to my grandfather, eventhough throughout his entire life, he never believes in Jesus. But I see this case as an opportunity for me to at least extend my help and to share some Truth to him. I believe that God will heal him and he will be able to stand on his feet again. His recovery will be the best testimony to the public.
People who read my blog, I urgently ask for you guys' prayer. I hope, in the end of the day, you all will be able to be one of the witnesses of this Miracle. Also, continue to pray for the people who face calamity in Myanmar, China and the States. We may not know what will come upon us tomorrow. Pray that people in this world will come back to their senses. Hope that they will leave their past and follow Christ before THE END OF THE DAY arrives.
May God show mercy to His people. Amen.
My mom, in her trembling voice, called to tell me that my grandfather has been admitted to hospital due to a road accident.
The first response that comes into my mind is "Lord, why the challenges have to be double the rate of what i can bare?"
If you notice the last entry of mine, you will know that i wanted to start a journal for my prayer. I would like to jot down my experience that i am about to have with God in this new phase of life.
The first prayer is to ask God to place me at the right Church/place for me to continue serving the Lord. The second will be to ask God to lead me the way to my future career. The third one for the Salvation of my family members and relatives. Never have I thought that another big challenge that outrank even the second priority of my prayer list - that is my grandfather's admission to the ICU.
Now i am facing greater challenges which requires me to double or triple my effort in my prayer exercise. Knowing that he suffers from minor fracture on his scalp, his collar bones and a few dislocated and fractured ribs. Doctor added that he suffers from concussion as well. Hearing that really makes my heart broken.
My grandfather has suffered enough in his life to bring up my mom, uncles and aunt. When he is senile and just about to live a relaxing life after retirement, this tragedy happened on him. I really pray that God will take this time to reveal Himself to my grandfather, eventhough throughout his entire life, he never believes in Jesus. But I see this case as an opportunity for me to at least extend my help and to share some Truth to him. I believe that God will heal him and he will be able to stand on his feet again. His recovery will be the best testimony to the public.
People who read my blog, I urgently ask for you guys' prayer. I hope, in the end of the day, you all will be able to be one of the witnesses of this Miracle. Also, continue to pray for the people who face calamity in Myanmar, China and the States. We may not know what will come upon us tomorrow. Pray that people in this world will come back to their senses. Hope that they will leave their past and follow Christ before THE END OF THE DAY arrives.
May God show mercy to His people. Amen.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Journal of Prayer
Prayer with doubt. Many of us face this problem when it comes to prayer.
It's a human nature to praise God only for answered prayers. Failure to receive blessing will cause one to leave God.
To cut thing short, I want to keep myself a journal on my prayers to God. Hope that one day, this can be a great testimony to the people in my vicinity. I will be a great encouragement if this happen to be a guide for people who wanted their faith to be consolidated by prayer.
Pray that i can sustain this although sometimes i may be "lukewarm" towards something i wanted to accomplish.
May God's goodness be shared to others.
It's a human nature to praise God only for answered prayers. Failure to receive blessing will cause one to leave God.
To cut thing short, I want to keep myself a journal on my prayers to God. Hope that one day, this can be a great testimony to the people in my vicinity. I will be a great encouragement if this happen to be a guide for people who wanted their faith to be consolidated by prayer.
Pray that i can sustain this although sometimes i may be "lukewarm" towards something i wanted to accomplish.
May God's goodness be shared to others.
Movie Review - Pawnshop No.8
Courtesy of DangPu8.comThis drama caught my attention 2 days ago. If it was not because of my favourite taiwanese artiste 天心， I would not have tried to view it.
This is a myth, or rather, a legend which was told of a pawnshop by the name of Pawnshop No. 8 (第8號當舖). According to the legend, if one locates this pawnshop, it will honour any request or wish that the person can ever ask for, as long as one is willing to pay the PRICE.
The PRICE may come in a form of materials like jewellery, house, land etc. It can be your body parts like ears and limbs. One can pay by offering one's true love. The pawnshop takes one's sanity, one's children's future in exchange for one's own future and interest. It accepts almost every valuable commodity that one can offer, even one's SOUL.
Many troubled people visited the pawnshop, hoping that one day after they have settled their problems, they can claim back their "treasure" which they have once pawned to the BROKER. But they never know that once this process has taken place, there will be no return. People who asked for money will always ask for more. Some who have succeeded will always want to be more successful. Those who asked for the "Blessing of Health" will make more pledge to sacrifice more treasure, including their love ones, for an exchange of his health and life span. This kind of business does not seem to come to an end and eventually, one had to pawn his own soul.
The mastermind behind this pawnshop is none but the Devil. He wants human to fall by offering their souls. Peopke may never think that far, as in what will cost them after this exchange is done. Often, men find ways to solve only short term problems. They never think of remedies to solve a long term ones. Never do they know that after solving one short term problem, there will be another short term problem.
This rat race seems too long and we are only running in a circle, encountering one problem after another. By the time we are senile and finally come to a stop, we will still be within the circle. There is no way other than Jesus, who is the way to God, the Father, the way to the Heavenly Kingdom and the way to Life.
This drama is really an eye opener for me. Sometimes, we do work ourselves to Hell but God is gracious to lead us back. Don't feel depress when we encounter insummountable problems but with Jesus around us, we are at rest.
I will finish this drama and probably write another entry for another enlightenment. Hope that those who watch it can get something out of it.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Sushi Art - The True Art of Japanese Cuisine
Prosperity can be nothing, if one cannot enjoy the luxury of good food. Fortunate for me to have lived in the heart of the isles of Northern Malaysia - Penang, where food is the main attraction.
Why is it so? The reason behind this is because Penang comprises mainly of Chinese community. As what it has been practiced among the chinese, even in the earliest civilisation of ancient Chinese Empire, the standard of food has always been a sign of wealth and status, apart from serving its basic purpose of satisfying one's hunger. It's always food that brings the chinese community together. There is always a reason to celebrate and to feast.
The Japanese Sushi madness hit South-East Asia years ago, promoting fresh, raw and health food to every single corner of Malaysia where chinese populations are the majority. Paying the bills for ths luxurious meal is simply pain-staking. But how to avoid paying this much? There is only if the consumers know how to prepare these sushis from scratch. No short cuts and pain in the ass.
My love for sushi led me to work as a sushi chef when I was studying in Leeds. Due to the improper teachings from the restaurant that i used to work in, my sushi making skills has shown no improvement. I really admire those who have tremendous skills in sushi making, not because they can perform this well in front of the customers, but rather the ability of calming themselves and avoiding mistakes. It requires continual practice whether you are rolling the sushi, hand-molding the nigiris or slicing pieces of raw fish meat. Patience and total focus will be the main ingredients to achieve this.
I must admit that i am not as good as what i have expected myself to do. But I am going to show the following clip, which will lead us to the highlight of this entry.
Look at how fast and how skillful for him to hand-mold the nigiris. There are 4 different methods to do it. Can you notice the difference?
Samurai Spirit oftens demonstrated on the samurai sword. Observe how he positioned sliced the futomaki. True Samurai Spirit!
Can you imagine how he came out the picture on the sushi that he was making?
I was puzzled when i saw different images from each slice of the futomaki. Look closely, he only did a roll of futomaki and it came with various designs! Simply remarkable!
Japanese food for dinner tonight, shall we?
To end this entry:
"Learn the Art. Feel the Passion. Love the Food."
"Hai. Itadakimasu!!!"
Why is it so? The reason behind this is because Penang comprises mainly of Chinese community. As what it has been practiced among the chinese, even in the earliest civilisation of ancient Chinese Empire, the standard of food has always been a sign of wealth and status, apart from serving its basic purpose of satisfying one's hunger. It's always food that brings the chinese community together. There is always a reason to celebrate and to feast.
The Japanese Sushi madness hit South-East Asia years ago, promoting fresh, raw and health food to every single corner of Malaysia where chinese populations are the majority. Paying the bills for ths luxurious meal is simply pain-staking. But how to avoid paying this much? There is only if the consumers know how to prepare these sushis from scratch. No short cuts and pain in the ass.
My love for sushi led me to work as a sushi chef when I was studying in Leeds. Due to the improper teachings from the restaurant that i used to work in, my sushi making skills has shown no improvement. I really admire those who have tremendous skills in sushi making, not because they can perform this well in front of the customers, but rather the ability of calming themselves and avoiding mistakes. It requires continual practice whether you are rolling the sushi, hand-molding the nigiris or slicing pieces of raw fish meat. Patience and total focus will be the main ingredients to achieve this.
I must admit that i am not as good as what i have expected myself to do. But I am going to show the following clip, which will lead us to the highlight of this entry.
Look at how fast and how skillful for him to hand-mold the nigiris. There are 4 different methods to do it. Can you notice the difference?
Samurai Spirit oftens demonstrated on the samurai sword. Observe how he positioned sliced the futomaki. True Samurai Spirit!
Can you imagine how he came out the picture on the sushi that he was making?
I was puzzled when i saw different images from each slice of the futomaki. Look closely, he only did a roll of futomaki and it came with various designs! Simply remarkable!
Japanese food for dinner tonight, shall we?
To end this entry:
"Learn the Art. Feel the Passion. Love the Food."
"Hai. Itadakimasu!!!"
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
Alfie - Makes me think of Paris
Long long time ago since i first heard of this song. Fall in love with it when it first appeared in a Japanese Drama - Concerto.
The most important fact that i like this song is because it is sung by my favourite female vocalist of all time - Vanessa Williams.
Alfie - Vanessa Williams
What's it all about, Alfie?
Is it just for the moment we live?
What's it all about when you sort it out, Alfie?
Are we meant to take more than we give
Or are we meant to be kind?
And if only fools are kind, Alfie,
Then I guess it's wise to be cruel.
And if life belongs only to the strong, Alfie,
What will you lend on an old golden rule?
As sure as I believe there's a heaven above, Alfie,
I know there's something much more,
Something even non-believers can believe in.
I believe in love, Alfie.
Without true love we just exist, Alfie.
Until you find the love you've missed you're nothing, Alfie.
When you walk let your heart lead the way
And you'll find love any day, Alfie, Alfie
The most important fact that i like this song is because it is sung by my favourite female vocalist of all time - Vanessa Williams.
Alfie - Vanessa Williams
What's it all about, Alfie?
Is it just for the moment we live?
What's it all about when you sort it out, Alfie?
Are we meant to take more than we give
Or are we meant to be kind?
And if only fools are kind, Alfie,
Then I guess it's wise to be cruel.
And if life belongs only to the strong, Alfie,
What will you lend on an old golden rule?
As sure as I believe there's a heaven above, Alfie,
I know there's something much more,
Something even non-believers can believe in.
I believe in love, Alfie.
Without true love we just exist, Alfie.
Until you find the love you've missed you're nothing, Alfie.
When you walk let your heart lead the way
And you'll find love any day, Alfie, Alfie
Monday, April 07, 2008
New Enlightenment - Be Patient
I'd wished that somebody would help me out with Analogue Electronics.
I've just discovered that i actually like electronics more than the previous option that i usually go for - Semiconductor fabrication. In the past, i failed to grasp the the whole concept of how the analogue and digital electronics operate. But somehow, today's reading provides me with all the knowledge that i used to find too intricate to fathom.
5 years from the first day i was admitted to the engineering school, i have been struggling to understand and to consolidate my foundation in the teaching of science and engineering. Due to the immaturity and lack of experience in doing my own research on the topics of studies, i often found myself "stumbled" in the process of digesting all these theories.
Hard work has paid off today as i finally manage to comprehend what i have long waited to acquire in this marvelous engineering presentation of the modern electronic circuitry. I'd wished that i could understand all these in my early days of university. But it took me more than 5 years (after my uni graduation) to be fully enlightened on this fact.
In the Bible, we are always reminded to wait patiently upon God for His Revelation. Today's incident has taught me to pursue, in consistency, for the "unraveled facts" with the heart of patience. Perhaps, it is a sign from God to ask me to wait for His instruction, while i am praying for his direction in my job application. Again, God is not in a hurry and He is always on time. I believe in the midst of all the waitings, i will be blessed with more Revelation from God, not only on the matter of getting fully enlightened on how science works, but also on the way to fully build up my faith within the spiritual realm.
I've just discovered that i actually like electronics more than the previous option that i usually go for - Semiconductor fabrication. In the past, i failed to grasp the the whole concept of how the analogue and digital electronics operate. But somehow, today's reading provides me with all the knowledge that i used to find too intricate to fathom.
5 years from the first day i was admitted to the engineering school, i have been struggling to understand and to consolidate my foundation in the teaching of science and engineering. Due to the immaturity and lack of experience in doing my own research on the topics of studies, i often found myself "stumbled" in the process of digesting all these theories.
Hard work has paid off today as i finally manage to comprehend what i have long waited to acquire in this marvelous engineering presentation of the modern electronic circuitry. I'd wished that i could understand all these in my early days of university. But it took me more than 5 years (after my uni graduation) to be fully enlightened on this fact.
In the Bible, we are always reminded to wait patiently upon God for His Revelation. Today's incident has taught me to pursue, in consistency, for the "unraveled facts" with the heart of patience. Perhaps, it is a sign from God to ask me to wait for His instruction, while i am praying for his direction in my job application. Again, God is not in a hurry and He is always on time. I believe in the midst of all the waitings, i will be blessed with more Revelation from God, not only on the matter of getting fully enlightened on how science works, but also on the way to fully build up my faith within the spiritual realm.
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
Believe, and you will...
Another day under the sunny little town, Penang. It just like some other day, when I am home, waiting for the time to come for me to attend interview. The situation turned out to be hard for me this time as my interviewers from INTEL have called upon the second interview for me.
To my amaze, they found that 2 and a half hour interview last was not sufficient for them to draw a conclusion on whether to hire me. And according to my uncle, the second interview could be harder than the first one. Imagine that one talks for 2 1/2 hours non-stop, and the topic is going to get harder the next time. Although i keep telling myself not to give in to fear, but i think the anxiety will keep haunting me until the interview is over.
This tells me that i need to hold on to my faith, just like i once did in my first interview. Never would have thought that it went just as easy. Sometimes, it requires one to truly believe that God is in control of everthing in one's life to have God demonstrate His true power on one. My situation now reminds me about the movie "Prince of Egypt". I am like the people among who followed Moses out from Egypt, who were still in doubt of what Moses could offer them. Never did they know that their God was going to bring them out of this hardship through the Man of Faith, Moses.
What the Hebrew needed was just to remind in Faith and to continually put their belief in the God who is never late to save. This message is consolidated with the theme song "When you believe". Indeed, there will be MIRACLE, when you BELIEVE! The lyrics follows to bring us the message that you may not know what God will bring you, and to what extent you can achieve the impossible, but only when you believe, you WILL! Praise the Lord, that in many ways we can cling on to Him for He is the God of Possible.
Thank God that as I am seeking Him, He found me first. I am glad that He is not playing HIDE and SEEK with me but truly revealed Himself to me, not only as a GUARDIAN and a GUIDE, but also as a FATHER and a FRIEND. I pray that this will be the time for me to build my character. Hope that that God will mold the image of what He really wants me to be.
The last but not the least, our song of the day "When you believe". Hope that it will be the inspiration, and more to that, the revelation for all Christians.
WHEN YOU BELIEVE
Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
And our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understand
Now we are not afraid
Although we know theres much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we know we could
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who know what miracle
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
And now I am standing here
My hearts so full I cant explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought Id say
They dont always happen when you ask
And its easy to give in to your fear
But when youre blinded by your pain
Cant see you way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near
To my amaze, they found that 2 and a half hour interview last was not sufficient for them to draw a conclusion on whether to hire me. And according to my uncle, the second interview could be harder than the first one. Imagine that one talks for 2 1/2 hours non-stop, and the topic is going to get harder the next time. Although i keep telling myself not to give in to fear, but i think the anxiety will keep haunting me until the interview is over.
This tells me that i need to hold on to my faith, just like i once did in my first interview. Never would have thought that it went just as easy. Sometimes, it requires one to truly believe that God is in control of everthing in one's life to have God demonstrate His true power on one. My situation now reminds me about the movie "Prince of Egypt". I am like the people among who followed Moses out from Egypt, who were still in doubt of what Moses could offer them. Never did they know that their God was going to bring them out of this hardship through the Man of Faith, Moses.
What the Hebrew needed was just to remind in Faith and to continually put their belief in the God who is never late to save. This message is consolidated with the theme song "When you believe". Indeed, there will be MIRACLE, when you BELIEVE! The lyrics follows to bring us the message that you may not know what God will bring you, and to what extent you can achieve the impossible, but only when you believe, you WILL! Praise the Lord, that in many ways we can cling on to Him for He is the God of Possible.
Thank God that as I am seeking Him, He found me first. I am glad that He is not playing HIDE and SEEK with me but truly revealed Himself to me, not only as a GUARDIAN and a GUIDE, but also as a FATHER and a FRIEND. I pray that this will be the time for me to build my character. Hope that that God will mold the image of what He really wants me to be.
The last but not the least, our song of the day "When you believe". Hope that it will be the inspiration, and more to that, the revelation for all Christians.
WHEN YOU BELIEVE
Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
And our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understand
Now we are not afraid
Although we know theres much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we know we could
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who know what miracle
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
And now I am standing here
My hearts so full I cant explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought Id say
They dont always happen when you ask
And its easy to give in to your fear
But when youre blinded by your pain
Cant see you way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
True Forgiveness
"This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. God presented him as a sacrifice of atonement, through faith in his blood. He did this to demonstrate his justice, because in his forbearance he had left the sins committed beforehand unpunished - he did it to demonstrate his justice a the present time, so as to be just and the one who justifies those who have faith in Jesus. "
- Romans 3:22-26 -
Even for many times we have sinned, we are still given many chances to compensate for what we have done wrong. God doesn't want to put us into awkward situation to help us learn but it is human nature to take God's mercy for granted.
God's plan of salvation didn't come by a day and just for a while, it came by a perfectly designed plan which can truly gain us freedom for eternity. The atonement has declared us free from the guilt of sin as our sins have been nailed onto the cross together with Christ Jesus. This makes JUSTIFICATION for human complete, which aso leads to the REDEMPTION of mankind.
Forgiveness is an unconditional love God shares among his people. To forgive means to forget about the past sin or mistake one has committed and to continue loving and encouraging one to turn to path of righteousness. If God has the patience to wait for us to change from our old self and to forgive us from our past deeds, we ought to be patient like him to forgive the others. God is love and so are his creation. So let the love of God spread around us. Learn to forgive and you will learn to love.
- Romans 3:22-26 -
Even for many times we have sinned, we are still given many chances to compensate for what we have done wrong. God doesn't want to put us into awkward situation to help us learn but it is human nature to take God's mercy for granted.
God's plan of salvation didn't come by a day and just for a while, it came by a perfectly designed plan which can truly gain us freedom for eternity. The atonement has declared us free from the guilt of sin as our sins have been nailed onto the cross together with Christ Jesus. This makes JUSTIFICATION for human complete, which aso leads to the REDEMPTION of mankind.
Forgiveness is an unconditional love God shares among his people. To forgive means to forget about the past sin or mistake one has committed and to continue loving and encouraging one to turn to path of righteousness. If God has the patience to wait for us to change from our old self and to forgive us from our past deeds, we ought to be patient like him to forgive the others. God is love and so are his creation. So let the love of God spread around us. Learn to forgive and you will learn to love.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Value of Circumcision
What advantage, then, is there in being a Jew, or what value is there in circumcision? (Rom 3:1 NIV)
Being a Jew means living a life by means to glorify and amplify God's holy name. Circumcision signifies cleansing of body and soul by the power of the Holy Spirit.
People do not live by who they are called to be if sin is still the master over them. What God wants is more than just a name which serves nothing in His very own ministry. Judgment will still fall on those who are obstinate towards the word.
The true value of circumcision can only be shown when one truly hold onto the teaching of Christ. This happens when the Spirit is living in us. To be one with the Spirit, one requires perseverance. It is sometimes hard for one to turn from one old self to a new leaf. Circumcision not only mean that one is being cleansed by means of the Holy Spirit but also indicates the readiness of an individual in baring the his cross to follow our Lord, Christ Jesus. The circumcision will be viewed as failure if one is physically circumcised but not yet ready to lay down his life and total surrenderedness to Christ.
God sees the hearts of His own creation. He honours those who walk the path of righteousness. Circumcision is now a step of obedience in the act of doing what God requires. It does not matter any more if one is Jew or Gentile, so long as the intention is correct in the eyes of the Most High.
Praise the Lord for the opportunity and freedom given to be able to come close to Him for He is forever a refuge and a strong tower to defend and to deliver us from our enemies. Thank you Lord that we are cleansed in your holy name and I ask that Lord you will bring many of the lost to be born again Christians, like us. Will you use us as your tool of Salvation. Amen.
Being a Jew means living a life by means to glorify and amplify God's holy name. Circumcision signifies cleansing of body and soul by the power of the Holy Spirit.
People do not live by who they are called to be if sin is still the master over them. What God wants is more than just a name which serves nothing in His very own ministry. Judgment will still fall on those who are obstinate towards the word.
The true value of circumcision can only be shown when one truly hold onto the teaching of Christ. This happens when the Spirit is living in us. To be one with the Spirit, one requires perseverance. It is sometimes hard for one to turn from one old self to a new leaf. Circumcision not only mean that one is being cleansed by means of the Holy Spirit but also indicates the readiness of an individual in baring the his cross to follow our Lord, Christ Jesus. The circumcision will be viewed as failure if one is physically circumcised but not yet ready to lay down his life and total surrenderedness to Christ.
God sees the hearts of His own creation. He honours those who walk the path of righteousness. Circumcision is now a step of obedience in the act of doing what God requires. It does not matter any more if one is Jew or Gentile, so long as the intention is correct in the eyes of the Most High.
Praise the Lord for the opportunity and freedom given to be able to come close to Him for He is forever a refuge and a strong tower to defend and to deliver us from our enemies. Thank you Lord that we are cleansed in your holy name and I ask that Lord you will bring many of the lost to be born again Christians, like us. Will you use us as your tool of Salvation. Amen.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Life Story - Police Cadet Elite Corps
Ace Company, 3rd Platoon was first established in the late 70s. Emerged as one of the earliest platoon ever formed in the history of police cadet corps, 3rd Platoon has attained several distinguished decorations of honour in multiple competitions organised in both state and national level by the Home and Education Ministries. It does make me proud for once, being the member of the platoon…
Remember the first drill practice that I attended, it almost got me sun-dried! Taking direct orders from the platoon sergeant, I would have to be at-ease on the marching ground for an hour. That was the longest hour I have ever stood for the past 15 years, knowing that I was not physically fit enough to withstand the torture. My shirt was soaked in sweat as if I have just returned from a swim. I was called to go for 15 minutes break after an hour and there wasn’t any sign of pain reflected from my muscles. I thought I got over with the pain but that wasn't the end of the story yet. Past 15 minutes and I got back to my original position. Stood there for another hour and I was then dismissed. I can’t remember how it came, my muscles were arching and I could hardly move around. Even a cough would kill me as the muscles on my abs were inflammably painful due to the extreme movement of the diaphragm of the lungs. That lasted for a couple of days until it is finally cured on its own.
Armed Drill Practice - M16 Assault Rifle.
Dated: 01/2005
Guard of Honour Inspection done by line officers.
Dated: 05/2006
After about a month on the intensive training, I have actually decided to write a letter to tell my platoon sergeant that I was going to quit. But on that day itself, somebody unintentionally infuriated him and that ‘somebody’ was never seen again in the platoon. Yes, he was permanently dismissed by the platoon sergeant. With all the shouting and reprimanding demonstrated in front of me, it has some how held me back from passing my resignation letter to the platoon sergeant. The fear of getting barked by the platoon sergeant slowed down my adrenaline rush. I had no choice but to accept my fate and to remain in the platoon until the end of my service term.
Frankly speaking, I was disappointed for not ending that once and for all. And leading the point that how I am going to survive to the completion of my service term in 2 and a half years. It does require good survival skills. In the situation as such, it helps me to grow. I couldn’t imagine that I had a strong will to turn the pessimistic mindset on ‘how to run away from problems’ to ‘making the problems lessons to learn’. From the weakest cadet, I was transformed to a competent player in the platoon. Less than 14 months, I was nominated to attend a promotion interview and later on, was promoted to the rank of corporal followed by the levelling of my NCO position as a section leader. Another 5 months later, I presided the Supreme Council and that levelled up my position as a new platoon sergeant and as Commander-in-Chief of the Non-Commissioned Officer’s (NCO) Council.
North East District Foot Drill Meet.
Dated: 07/2005
Drill Formation.
Dated: 07/2005
Portray of my platoon. Taken during state level foot drill meet.
Dated: 06/08/2000
Supreme Council 1999/2000.
Dated: 07/2000
To me, it’s still unreal because I would never think that I would make it to the top but rather survive through this. I really appreciate those who have helped and assisted me during my service term. Even though there often times that we may have disagreement with each other but all really comes for our platoon interest. Troubles have drawn our friendship together and I will never forget the wonderful times we spent under the sun! Kudos to all the cadets who have made it!!! Continue to bring glory to 3rd Platoon. For all you have accomplisehed, I salute you.
Signed off,
Sgt. Cdt. Wayne T.W.Ng
Commander-in-Chief 99/00
3rd Platoon, Ace Company
Remember the first drill practice that I attended, it almost got me sun-dried! Taking direct orders from the platoon sergeant, I would have to be at-ease on the marching ground for an hour. That was the longest hour I have ever stood for the past 15 years, knowing that I was not physically fit enough to withstand the torture. My shirt was soaked in sweat as if I have just returned from a swim. I was called to go for 15 minutes break after an hour and there wasn’t any sign of pain reflected from my muscles. I thought I got over with the pain but that wasn't the end of the story yet. Past 15 minutes and I got back to my original position. Stood there for another hour and I was then dismissed. I can’t remember how it came, my muscles were arching and I could hardly move around. Even a cough would kill me as the muscles on my abs were inflammably painful due to the extreme movement of the diaphragm of the lungs. That lasted for a couple of days until it is finally cured on its own.
Armed Drill Practice - M16 Assault Rifle.
Dated: 01/2005
Guard of Honour Inspection done by line officers.
Dated: 05/2006
After about a month on the intensive training, I have actually decided to write a letter to tell my platoon sergeant that I was going to quit. But on that day itself, somebody unintentionally infuriated him and that ‘somebody’ was never seen again in the platoon. Yes, he was permanently dismissed by the platoon sergeant. With all the shouting and reprimanding demonstrated in front of me, it has some how held me back from passing my resignation letter to the platoon sergeant. The fear of getting barked by the platoon sergeant slowed down my adrenaline rush. I had no choice but to accept my fate and to remain in the platoon until the end of my service term.
Frankly speaking, I was disappointed for not ending that once and for all. And leading the point that how I am going to survive to the completion of my service term in 2 and a half years. It does require good survival skills. In the situation as such, it helps me to grow. I couldn’t imagine that I had a strong will to turn the pessimistic mindset on ‘how to run away from problems’ to ‘making the problems lessons to learn’. From the weakest cadet, I was transformed to a competent player in the platoon. Less than 14 months, I was nominated to attend a promotion interview and later on, was promoted to the rank of corporal followed by the levelling of my NCO position as a section leader. Another 5 months later, I presided the Supreme Council and that levelled up my position as a new platoon sergeant and as Commander-in-Chief of the Non-Commissioned Officer’s (NCO) Council.
North East District Foot Drill Meet.
Dated: 07/2005
Drill Formation.
Dated: 07/2005
Portray of my platoon. Taken during state level foot drill meet.
Dated: 06/08/2000
Supreme Council 1999/2000.
Dated: 07/2000
To me, it’s still unreal because I would never think that I would make it to the top but rather survive through this. I really appreciate those who have helped and assisted me during my service term. Even though there often times that we may have disagreement with each other but all really comes for our platoon interest. Troubles have drawn our friendship together and I will never forget the wonderful times we spent under the sun! Kudos to all the cadets who have made it!!! Continue to bring glory to 3rd Platoon. For all you have accomplisehed, I salute you.
Signed off,
Sgt. Cdt. Wayne T.W.Ng
Commander-in-Chief 99/00
3rd Platoon, Ace Company
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Puzzle
Productive week after a cold. Started to work on Thursday and it really drove me to insanity. Apparently my colleague Patrick has taken his leave for two weeks in the land of paradise - Spain. So that means I am the only full time chef left in the restaurant. Does it mean I get more pay for getting more working hours for these two weeks? Or thinking on the worse site of the case, I might have to work my lungs out, considering the shortage of staff working full time. This matter indirectly creates anxiety. It went on for the whole week and I am mentally tired of battling against it. Most of the time, people tend to look for solution regardless of what takes them, as long as the solution fits the missing pieces from the puzzle. But here is the question. Does life work like a jigsaw puzzle?
Imagine, as people spend all their lives looking for pieces to be filled in their personal puzzle board. The end product is supposed to be a nice picture. But how often people can accomplish this? Trouble comes and the pieces seem falling apart. We claim that we know ourselves best but how many people can be sure that they know which piece would fit the correct position? People lost their mind looking for a way out of their problems. To be too dependant on one's belief often causes a even deeper trouble into the existing problem. The only way is to seek God. God doesn't simply put us into trials without any reason. Jesus is the great plan God has set for us. Nobody would ever think of that, when Jesus was persecuted and crucified on the cross. He was there to break the power of sin so that we gain true freedom. The hidden plan is now revealed to all of us. The main solution is not how well we can fit the missing pieces but how we can lead things back to God, the Creator who knows us all.
Praise the Lord of the Heavens and the Earth. We can relate so much of ourselves to Him. He reveals the truth to us. His love surrounds us. His compassion drives us. His wisdom fills us. God is with us. Now, stop searching around for the missing pieces and start looking for the one who is going to complete the puzzle - God. He is the way, the truth and the life we are seeking for. Go ahead, receive this wonderful Savior, our everlasting Father.
Imagine, as people spend all their lives looking for pieces to be filled in their personal puzzle board. The end product is supposed to be a nice picture. But how often people can accomplish this? Trouble comes and the pieces seem falling apart. We claim that we know ourselves best but how many people can be sure that they know which piece would fit the correct position? People lost their mind looking for a way out of their problems. To be too dependant on one's belief often causes a even deeper trouble into the existing problem. The only way is to seek God. God doesn't simply put us into trials without any reason. Jesus is the great plan God has set for us. Nobody would ever think of that, when Jesus was persecuted and crucified on the cross. He was there to break the power of sin so that we gain true freedom. The hidden plan is now revealed to all of us. The main solution is not how well we can fit the missing pieces but how we can lead things back to God, the Creator who knows us all.
Praise the Lord of the Heavens and the Earth. We can relate so much of ourselves to Him. He reveals the truth to us. His love surrounds us. His compassion drives us. His wisdom fills us. God is with us. Now, stop searching around for the missing pieces and start looking for the one who is going to complete the puzzle - God. He is the way, the truth and the life we are seeking for. Go ahead, receive this wonderful Savior, our everlasting Father.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Kamen Rider
The dream hero in my childhood period. Used to call it Dark Knight Rider.
It is really reminiscent. Thinking back again about the story line, it is a good one.
It is really reminiscent. Thinking back again about the story line, it is a good one.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
How Could I Live
A song i sang during my first backup singing in LCCC Sunday worship. How beautiful the world that the Lord has blessed us and how beautiful we are to Him. Thank you Lord for choosing the cross for there will be no existance of human if it wasn't you who revived us through your body and your blood. God, let us sing a hymm of love and praise to you for your faithfulness. How can we possibly live without your great vision of creating human at the first place. So Lord God let us continue to dwell into Your presence and have us to share the intimacy that we have always wanted to with You, Lord.
How could i live
How could i live without You
How could i survive
Without Your love
Without Your touch
You're the One that heals me
And cleanses my heart
And sets me free
Now i come right before You
With my hands lifted up
With my heart humbly bowed
At Your work on the cross
As You hang there and die
You were paying the price
For my life, For my life
For Your love is higher than the heavens
Deeper than the seas
And all i want is You in my life
No one else can satisfy my soul
Can make me feel this way
Only You Lord, only You.
How could i live
How could i live without You
How could i survive
Without Your love
Without Your touch
You're the One that heals me
And cleanses my heart
And sets me free
Now i come right before You
With my hands lifted up
With my heart humbly bowed
At Your work on the cross
As You hang there and die
You were paying the price
For my life, For my life
For Your love is higher than the heavens
Deeper than the seas
And all i want is You in my life
No one else can satisfy my soul
Can make me feel this way
Only You Lord, only You.
Break me and reassemble me
Valentine's day, an extraordinary day for God to speak through me about His teaching. Many people might think that i am fine in my life. But that's not the truth. I feel weak as i can't focus on what God has to say to me. My body and soul started to take over me. I was moving in despair and truly heart-broken.
God is faithful to me. I know it to myself that i am living in a life of arrogance. And this is the first time God has ever worked so deep in my heart that i nearly burst into tears. Arrogance has led me to disobey God's command. It was my body and soul which were leading me. But the stage of life i was going through was just broken by God. The pain comes in and finally i just discovered that i haven't really loved God much of this time eventhrough i have been showing to Him through my prayers. That might be the stage that most of the successful christians must go through.
So i really pray to God that He will teach me more on my daily prayer life. Give me something to pray of as the day goes by. And may the prayer be what the Lord has commanded.
Thank you Lord for breaking me and have me tasted this bitterness so that i can continue to be the man of integrity. Lord, i just want to give my life to you and surrender fully into your ministry. May the power of the Holy Spirit lead me through the darkest time i am facing now. And God, i pray that you will reassemble me once again and have my spirit renewed. Give me a new hope O Lord and help me to listen to and believe on what you want to say with me, so that i can march boldly like once the Israelites did in Egypt.
My prayer to God for His constant blessing, so that the hunger of the word of God in me continues to flow. There will be none like Valentine's day, where the presence of God has touched me so deep. And may Lord God help me to love Him more and may the reconciliation of the fellowship with God be eternal. Amen.
God is faithful to me. I know it to myself that i am living in a life of arrogance. And this is the first time God has ever worked so deep in my heart that i nearly burst into tears. Arrogance has led me to disobey God's command. It was my body and soul which were leading me. But the stage of life i was going through was just broken by God. The pain comes in and finally i just discovered that i haven't really loved God much of this time eventhrough i have been showing to Him through my prayers. That might be the stage that most of the successful christians must go through.
So i really pray to God that He will teach me more on my daily prayer life. Give me something to pray of as the day goes by. And may the prayer be what the Lord has commanded.
Thank you Lord for breaking me and have me tasted this bitterness so that i can continue to be the man of integrity. Lord, i just want to give my life to you and surrender fully into your ministry. May the power of the Holy Spirit lead me through the darkest time i am facing now. And God, i pray that you will reassemble me once again and have my spirit renewed. Give me a new hope O Lord and help me to listen to and believe on what you want to say with me, so that i can march boldly like once the Israelites did in Egypt.
My prayer to God for His constant blessing, so that the hunger of the word of God in me continues to flow. There will be none like Valentine's day, where the presence of God has touched me so deep. And may Lord God help me to love Him more and may the reconciliation of the fellowship with God be eternal. Amen.
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